LIFE AS WE KNOW IT....

hate to be alone

2009-07-06T15:12:00.012+08:00

Alone.

I hate to be alone.

Who wants to be alone?

Last week, I think that was last Sunday, I was urged to go out of our house because I've told everyone that I have a Seminar to attend in SM the Block, even im not really going to. They already gave me the money for the said event (and ofcourse kick-back na!!) hahaha so i don't have any choice but to go out. It was 9am when my mom shouted, "justin!! mag 10 na..dba may seminar ka! wake up!!!". I got up and prepared. I'm still drowsy and tired but i need to go out.

I was ready to go when my mom scolded me, "late ka na naman! ano ba yan!".

I gave her my excuse, "Ma! 10:30 pa ung seminar! and my friends are already in SM. They are goin to reserve a seat for me!" yeah i lied.

Now I feel your eyebrows are raising. haha Honestly, There was a real seminar in SM that day, and had my reservation. BUT i used the money for other stuff and food. anyhow...

10:15 am. I dont know where to go and what to do. What is the nearest mall that i won't be spotted. I kept on thinkin' and finally decided to go to Robinson's Place Metro East. It is in Cainta. They won't go there! that's for sure. haha so I travel to Rob East.

I arrived at RP. There I am, All alone. I texted every friend that is near my location. Hoping that I would be saved from boredom and all. But Nada, Zilch, Zero, none of my friends reply from my instant invitation for chillin' out.

I walked and walked sadly inside the mall. Feeling blue as the cold wind from the ACs of the mall touched my skin. I don't want to go to malls alone. I don't go out alone, even for a hair-cut in a salon, drinking in coffee shops nor shopping for my clothes. I tend to be sad and bored when alone in a mall. I hate it. I hoped that someone will text me, "juz where u at? im coming!" oh well, wala.

I was sleepy and haggard na,

then I heard my stomach was grumbling.

I forgot, i haven't eat anything...

so i ate in McDonalds.

hate this part again, alone. Hahahaha

As I ate my breakfast. I observed the mall, the people and also the ones who were ordering in the counter. It was Sunday, Family day, and im alone. Then what I saw made me laugh. Mga Indays and Dongs that are dating. Sunday nga pala, D-off nila.. Poor me. Sila may partner, ako wala, kasi busy ung dapat partner ko sa isang event that day. haha

I observed more of my surrounding while digging on my salty fries.

Sitting in front of me were three old maids with irritating voices. Laughing out loud and gossiping. Then there was a family, sitting in front of the old maids. They have this cute cuddly young boy, who was pinched by one of the old maids. they're not related. weird oldies.

and the dating indays and dongs.. hahaha

I was giggling by myself.. and one of the few "couples" around me gave that aweful glance.

They might be thinking that im a lunatic. I could careless. haha

I finished my large fries without noticing it. Now it is 11:30. still bored. Hopeless.

I dont know what to do now.

I saw this internet hub.

Went in and rented a computer for an hour.

got online.

and finally.

i felt...

im not ALONE. ^_^

Simple Joys

2009-03-13T21:24:00.000+08:00

Friday the 13^th

Grotesque

Hoax

Wretched

Unlucky day

These are just the few things that might happen when there is a Friday the 13^th.

Well. That didn’t work on me baby today!

Coz I experienced one of the kilig day ever.

Well it’s not that big occurrence that happened to me, it is simply a kilig moment.

Cheng - **chu - ang** And I was sitting inside a room somewhere in Legarda.

Cheng was reading announcements on the door. It is on Chinese character.

And I was caught astonished on what Cheng was doing. haha

Confession, I really want to learn Chinese, Korean and nihonggo!!!

After reading, Cheng started writing Chinese characters on a paper.

It was cute to see cheng wrote so fast…

So there I was, sitting amazingly, watching the pen move swiftly.

Then Cheng grabbed my hand.

At my surprise, Cheng wrote this on my right hand.

I knew what this means. Hahaha

So what else I felt.

WAHHH KILIG!!!

so sweet

so lovely

so everything.

SURVEY TIME means im BORED!

2009-02-26T18:55:00.000+08:00

Have one person in your mind while answering this ok! ^_^

1. friend mo ba siya sa multiply or any social sites?
>yup. i think so.

2. bakit siya napili mo sa survey na to?
> hmm let's say life ko siya

3. anong lugar ang naaalala mo sa kanya?
> DLSU SOUTH GATE

4. anong song ang naaalala mo sa kanya?
> INSOMIA -- aahhh

5. bakit?
> hindi nia alam ung title at first.. and then nakakatawa pag kinakanta nia..

6. okay ba ang height?
> YUP :)

7. magaling ba sumayaw?
> oohhh so good. may award pa sa DLSU hahaha

8. may kamukha ba siyang artista?
> wala.

9. nakita mo na siyang magalit?
> slight galit lang.

10. eh ngumiti?
> hmmm uu naman. crazy weird smile.

11. eh umiyak?
> yup.

12. ano fave niya suotin?
> Tees from TOPMAN AND ZARA

13. pinapasaya ka ba niya?
> perpetual Bliss

14. naging malaking parte ba sya ng buhay mo?
> life changingly yes.

15. mga bagay na nakakapagpaalala sayo tungkol sa kanya?
> everything. esp starbucks

16. minahal ka ba nya?
> yup! YES!

17. friends ba kayo?
> yeah!

19. may binigay na ba syang lesson sayo? ano?
> diet is not the answer. ANOREXIA dapat! wahahhaa

20. may codename ba siya sayo?
> STAR inside a BOX! hehehe

Boys Be...

2009-01-20T22:05:00.000+08:00

BOYS BE…

is a manga created and written by Masahiro Itabashi and illustrated by Hiroyuki Tamakoshi, which was in 2000 adapted into a 13 episode anime series by Hal Film Maker.

Three different Boys Be... First is the manga series , serialized by Kodansha in Shukan Shōnen Magazine. The second manga series is licensed in North America by Tokyopop and the anime is licensed by The Right Stuf International. The anime, first aired on WOWOW (with a matching fanline email address courtesy of Lycos Japan), is licensed in Singapore by Odex. The first DVD volume of the series was released in North America on February 28, 2006. Comcast and serval other cable providers are currently showing 'Boys Be' On Demand in the United States through the Anime Network. This series was aired on AXN-Asia before it handed all anime broadcasting duties to ANIMAX Asia, and, unlike other AXN anime making it to ANIMAX, was never retained.

Boys Be…

I would say, is a great anime for guys like me. Its story is about how guys developed into mature men. How they have handled the stress of balancing school works with their love life, their childhood infatuations and also the challenges in growing up and urging testosterones. I can’t forget when I watched it on ANIMAX.. whoah! The first episode blew me off. The soundtrack was perfectly jived the drama and funny stuff in the story, especially when the quotes that were shown every episode. So Perfect. That was 8 years ago. Time flew so fast. And still, I get Goosebumps whenever I hear their soundtrack.

THIS IS ME!!?

2008-12-12T04:48:00.000+08:00

Finally filed my application for graduation! wahh is this really it?

butterflies in my stomach

fast breathing.

panic panic

hahaha grad na ako! yosh!

im going to miss school. iba din ung nagaaral ka,

enjoying parties, drinking sessions and looking for prospects.

spending timeless chatting with friends,

ruthless professors and clinical instructors,

and most of important of all in a student's life....

ALLOWANCE..

hahaha but thank God, college is over

and

now...

hello BOARD EXAMS

and

Graduate School!

and look this! it was 2 years ago..

because of ever stressful life.. my youthful glow disappeared.

^_^

end of training weeks

2008-12-07T22:48:00.000+08:00

kudos!

our training weeks were over but here's the hard part!!

PRODUCTIONS..

finally gonna take in live calls.

new faces.

new friends

gonna miss my classmates in training.

and my morning breakfast treats!

Turkey Time!

2008-11-28T02:57:00.000+08:00

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!

Thanksgiving, or Thanksgiving Day, celebrated on the fourth Thursday in November, at the end of the harvest season, is an annual American federal holiday to express thanks for one's material and spiritual possessions.

Most people celebrate by gathering at home with family or friends for a holiday feast. Though the holiday's origins can be traced to harvest festivals which have been celebrated in many cultures since ancient times, the American holiday has religious undertones related to the deliverance of the English settlers by Native Americans after the brutal winter at Plymouth, Massachusetts.

The period from Thanksgiving Day through New Year's Eve often is called the holiday season.

Source: Wiki

I act like a 19 Year Old

2008-11-07T06:43:00.000+08:00

Put an X in all that apply and then add up to see how old you act!

[ ] You know how to make a pot of coffee
[x] You keep track of dates using a calendar
[ ] You own a credit card
[ ] You know how to change the oil in a car
[ ] You've done your own laundry
[x] You can vote in an election
[x] You can cook for yourself
[x] You think politics are exciting
TOTAL SO FAR: 4

[x] You show up for school late a lot
[x] You always carry a pen in your bag/purse/pocket
[ ] You've never gotten a detention
[ ] You have forgotten your own birthday at least once
[ ] You like to take walks by yourself
[x] You drink caffeine at least once a week
TOTAL SO FAR: 7

[x] You know how to do the dishes
[x] You can count to 10 in another language
[x] When you say you're going to do something you do it
[ ] You can mow the lawn
[x] You study when you have to
[x] You have hand washed a car before
TOTAL SO FAR: 12

[ ] You can spell experience, without looking it up
[x] The people at Starbucks know you by name (some)
[ ] Your favorite kind of food is shawarma
[ ] The first thing you do when you wake up is get caffeine
[x] You can go to the store without getting something you don't need
[x] You understand political jokes the first time they are said
[x] You can type pretty quick
TOTAL SO FAR: 16

[ ] Your only friends are from your place of employment
[x] You have been to a Tupperware party
[ ] You have realized that no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a job
[x] You have more bills than you can pay
[x] You use the internet every day
[ ] You have been outside of the country 2 or more times
[ ] You make your own bed
TOTAL: 19

The Total number is the age you act.

POP! Just like a Bubble

2008-09-17T20:05:00.000+08:00

Seeing bubbles are fantastic sight…

Floating Freely in the air.

Sometimes shines brightly when struck by the pigment of light.

Its radiance compliments its perfect shape,

Yet so fragile. Frail. Weak structure.

one touch.

It’s gone.

When we are in love, we are like bubbles.

Always on a high and happy,

In a bubble, too much oxygen,

Then BOOM.

It will vanish…

In love, gave everything you’ve got,

Sometimes, you will looked stupid, all for love..

Still, they will leave you.

Alone. Badly hurt. Full of loneliness.

Like a bubble,

One touch,

It’s gone.

Have you experienced being a bubble?

Crying Laarni

2008-09-14T18:02:00.000+08:00

Its really shocking that Liz took the 4th place.. and Miguel for the 3rd..

La lang.. weird.

LAARNI is the new

STAR DREAMER!!

Congratulations.,

un nga lang.. its better kung kumanta muna sya then iyak na.. overwhelming ksi ang manalo dba.. hehe

UAAP Cheering Dance Competition 08

2008-09-13T00:38:00.000+08:00

THE BEST BANNER

thanks for the pic http://paulomarquez7up.multiply.com/

No Hard Feelings to my friends and colleagues na matatamaan ah.. hehe

GO USTE!

Basta alam ko lahat ng teams nag improved talaga!

Both UP and UST showed what they've got. The back-to-basic routines of UP "tribu thingy" was spectacular, though have some mistakes, take got the crown again this year.

Hayyz. sayang hindi nanalo UST, oh well, that's life.. There is still next year to bring back to crown to the royalties.. right? hehehe

FDA!!?? -- WTF!

2008-08-15T17:50:00.000+08:00

FDA or famously known as “Failure Due To Absences”

Damn that word! Grrr

Early this morning, I really felt bad and the Upper Left Quadrant of my abdomen hurt all over again. So I went to our family doctor for second opinion about it. Which means, I am going to be ABSENT again in my Friday morning class…

Because of the stabbing pain that I’m feeling, I forgot my mobile phone at home when I went to my doctor, so when I came back home…what I saw, 33 messages received... grabe no. Anyhow, 11 of those messages only said the same sh*t,

“Justin! Our Prof dropped you on our class!!!”

What the f*ck!!

Bad trip! NO!!! Bummer!

Even I’m feeling ominous and badly hurt, I went straight to school to talk to my professor, He can’t do this to me! It is the only major subject I’m taking this semester, NCM 150 – Nursing Management, and this would be the last semester of my college life… huhu I was sobbing when I read the sms sent by my dear friends.

My professor was busy when I got inside our classroom. He doesn’t want to talk now, but when? Sighs Life so cruel! I hope and pray that he will change his mind.

Just yesterday, I was thrilled and full of happiness when I found out that I passed my course audit 1 (pre-board examination 1) and my professor allowed me to take the upcoming Nursing Licensure examination this November.

And now. I’m depressed. Sad. Gloom. Lahat na.

INUMAN NA! Amp!

what if my "EX" asks me...

2008-07-22T12:16:00.000+08:00

1. Why did you let me go?
>> its about time to let go..

2. I still love you..
>> why only now? **evil laugh**

3. When did we last talk?
>> cant recall.. uhm yesterday? haha

4. Will you go out with me?
>> yup why not. wer good friends ryt.. your treat?

5. Hey, can i give you a ride?
>> sure.. wow,, you have auto na.. galing..

6. I cannot keep my promise to you.
>> which one? its ok! ^_^

7. My friends say we don't look good together..
>> yeah.. that's why we broke up? haha

8. You have changed.
>> thanks.. i know..i love it!

9. Can we get back together?
>> are you talking to me? sorry im deaf now.. haha *sagot ng bitter*

10. Oh, I knew what this is all about.
>> awww too late to learn about it.

11. Don't you realize? You are the one who hurt me!
>> did I? well then, thats great.. *lol*

12. how can u forget our memories??
>> dont worry dear.. didnt forget it.
especially the cheating part. **haha**

13. I will always love you.
>> good. but i won't

These all goes to my exes... hahaha..
nothin in particular aryt! ^_^ peace

MUMU encounter

2008-07-15T14:00:00.004+08:00

Last Week, I went to Cait’s place to chill and watch a movie. But we decided to go out and hunt for the best fitness center for us. Yeah! It’s about time for me to hit the gym and burn those carbs away and lose some weight. My summer vacation made my tummy bigger! Hate it… grrrr….

On that rainy afternoon, the two of us walked around Timog Ave., searchin’ and inquiring for gym memberships. Another bonding moment for us! And a double purpose trip…sightseeing for prospects! Hahahaha

We found quite a few, fantastic and nice gyms but oh soo expensive. It’s like you’re goin to enroll for the major fitness centers in the town.

It is already nighttime when we finally reached our last destination, the one located near Timog Avenue and Tomas Morato. They cater good spa services and they also have gym facilities!

“Yipee!” our initial reaction! But wait, there’s more (TV ad?!!!)

As we check the whole place, a big creepy thing happened to us! Here’s the scary story.
I was in the 5th floor of the building, waiting in the lobby for Cait. She went inside the wet area to look around. Few minutes passed by, Cait is still inside. It’s ok because I’m enjoying the aroma that I smell while I’m standing in between the stained glass door and the elevator. The whole building is like piped with burning lily and rose oils. Relaxing, until a “girl” dressed in a blue scrub suit came down from the stairs beside the elevator. “She” climbed down from 6th floor, the Men’s VIP. “She” looked at me and stared at the down button for the elevator. I ignored her. When “she” was around and just stand in front of the elevator buttons, the good aroma went out. I still ignored it.

Few minutes past by again before Cait came out of the room. We chitchat for a while and the “girl” is still standing and staring in the elevator’s button so Cait decided to press it. We’re on our way to the second floor. Caitlin came in first, me, and then the “girl”. I pressed the 2nd floor button and the “girl” didn’t ask over on what floor she’s heading so I thought she’s also going to the same floor. I was standing and blocking the elevator keys and Caitlin is in front of me. The “girl” is in the far corner end of the elevator. Imagine the usual locations of ghosts in an elevator…YES! You’re right. She is standing there silently while the two of us are buzzing about what am I goin to see in the “MENS WET AREA!” hahaha

Caitlin and I noticed that our elevator trip is such a long one. There are only 5 floors and few guests inside the building, so what’s making it too long. I looked at the screen where the arrow going down and on what floor we are already in can be seen. And guess what, All I saw was (down)00 or ¯ 9 or ¯XX... wahhh then the elevator doors opened. There are no stained glass doors like in the 5th and all we can see was all white wall and flashing bulb lights. It’s really getting bewildering.

“2nd floor na ba ito?” I said, looking confused and crept out!
The “girl” alights first and we thought we are in the 2nd floor.
We’re about to follow her but she murmured,
“Hindi pa kayo dito.. Ground Floor Ito…”
“ahh ganun ba?!” we replied, then went inside the lift again.

As the door closes, both of us looked blankly at each other. WTF!
“bakit siya nauna bumaba?” I said.
“honga eh! Baka emergency! Baka may video dito sa elevator or something...” said by cait.
“hmmm baka nga…”

We just made those scientifically wrong ideas for us not to get scared and hysterical. The 2nd floor button is still highlighted, which means we never been in 2nd floor. And at our surprise, the elevator brought us back to the 5th floor! Whoah! Now that is something. We tried to close the elevator doors for six times but it wouldn’t so we decided to use the stairs. We ran as fast as we can until we reached the real 2nd floor. We went inside swiftly and had a nippy tour. I don’t care anymore on what am I going to see inside the place. Although exciting, all I want is to get out of the bloodcurdling building.

We asked few staffs in the 2nd floor and in the main ground floor main desk about the elevator. Is it malfunctioning or something? Just to clarify our doubting minds and also report to them that we got stuck inside of it. Their answers are totally farfetched.
The funniest answer was,
“ginagawa po kasi ung third floor, under renovation. Baka napipindot lang po…” what?

After receiving mind-boggling answers, we finally went out of the building. Still have Goosebumps on our body and profoundly scared.

Facts that made us believe that we encountered a spirit:

1. The “girl” never touched anything. Remember, she didn’t even press any buttons on which floor “she’s” going.
2. There is a wacky feeling when she arrived. A heavy one. It’s like happiness were sucked out from us.
3. If she were a staff there, why would “she” say that she alighted at the ground floor? There is only one ground floor and she should know the whole building.
4. Renovations on the 3rd floor? Huh? No one will work for construction in the evening. Passed 8pm? Come on!
5. The faces of the staffs went blunt and scared when we asked about the elevator.. whooooo!

It’s really a scary, hair-raising adventure for us! Have you tried one yet?

It's Goood To Be Back!

2008-07-06T02:11:00.020+08:00

The heat of the summer made me slumber

OMG! It’s been a long time since my last post here.
Imagine 6 months… **phew**
and

My friends keep on asking,
“Why aren’t you writing anything on your blog? Oh my… You became a freakin’ sloth?”

Whenever I receive questions like this, I just give them a lil devil’s grin and tell them, “It’s summer, the heat waves always made me sleepy and tired.” Hahaha

What a dumb excuse right? Well to tell you honestly, I’ve been off for a deep slumber in the blogger’s world because
I experienced one of a great summer vacation evah!
LIKE….

Discover New Niche’

Learn New Things.

Ultimate Reunion.

Enjoyed the summer breeze!

Surf and Wakeboard.

Jump High.

Sleepless Nightouts and Parteys!

Tumble in the beach.

Indulge over scrumptious foods and desserts!

Yummy.

Live the army way…

Saw fantastic Sigths

Acidentally Swallow Chlorinated water.

Witness my friends glory moments!

and full of...

...ROAD TRIPS

from trafficjam South to Bumpy North!!

Summer didn’t end till the second week of June…
Hangover of the summer-heat exploded.

But to top my experiences and closed the festivities…

My heart was torn again into pieces.
Bulls eye!

A hell of a Break-up I’d say.
Been there. Done that.
But why it still has an impact on me.
Badly hurt inside out.
Now. Recovering from being a shattered soul.

"Closure" Do we need it?

2008-07-05T23:31:00.002+08:00

I found a very nice reading the other day and really inspired me a lot. It really amazed me that a not so tabloid paper has sense at all… This reading came from Inquirer Libre. Yup! The ones we can get for free in MRT and LRT stations. I loved their Zodiac Readings, so uproarious. This portion of the reading is also flying in the airways of SMS, maybe it really hit hard to those people who encountered this “closure’ thingy. Break up is hard to overcome and closure is the first step to do. Hope you’ll like this too…

Uso ngayon ang terminong “CLOSURE”

It’s to indicate the formal break-up of two parties involved in a romantic relationship. Mahalagang mangyari ito dahil isa siyang malinaw na indikasyon ng pagtatapos ng ugnayan ng dalawang tao.

Kapag wala kasing closure, parang bitin.

Hindi maka-move on.

So bakit nga dusa kapag walang closure?

May tinatawag ang mga psychologists na “open” and “closed” memories ng mga tao. Ang mga isyung bitin o hindi na-resolba ay tinuturing na “open” memories.

Open Memories are the ones we still struggle to understand. We think about them often, and still see them as relevant to our current lives.

/xoxo/

SMS Chains

2008-01-27T14:31:00.000+08:00

I always recieve chain txt messages. Like those stupid cursed messages (you'll die if your not going to forward this to __ people on your phonebook). Sometimes I hate receiving those kind and eats up the memory on my phone. so wen recieves one, immediately dewletes it and I dont want to read the whole message. Besides, i KNow for sure, ill die or something bad will happen if not passed to someone else.. hehehe

There's this one SMS that I love to forward to my whole phonebook list..
just for fun..
and to know how my friends will react...

the message:

"What will you do...
if you see me in an empty room,
we are all alone,
my hands and feet are tied up..
barenaked..
and my eyes are also
covered with a hanky...??"

some of the replies:

"pipikturan kta..! Haha" --TJ and SAM and Impakto Nyx

"Alam mo na yun... Rape ito!!" --Jays

"Dadamitan ka" --Alvin

"Wala..il set u free.. embarasing un sa isang kaibigan kgaya mu..hehe" --IciE

"Pwd b ktang chapchapin? Hahaha." --Clairemenk

"BIbihisan kta kse bka lamigin ka. hahaha." --Chipster

"malamang rape ito!!" --Jakie Madrigz

"Tinago ko na ung damit mo. Hehehe" --HSBC Jay

"iRape kta ng bongang bonga hahaha" --Mae Yanga

"hehehe..pagsa2mantalhan kta..hahaha joke.. e d da2mitan kta at t2nggaling ung tali at ung piring sa mata.. hehehe" ---Macy Agne

"papa-rape kita. . ^_^ kay oink oink!!" --Haven

"gagahasain kta.,,heheh" --Jonatz

"ku2nin ko lht ng gamt mo, kahit 1 wla me it2ra,

tapos t2kbo na.. Hahahaha"

--Iris Ayroso

>>>kawawa pala ako, if this happens..
Uber rape talaga! hehehe... only few wuddress me up.. haha
How about you?
what will you do?? hehe

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Justin: "you're just yesterday's fuck. It meant nothing..."

TOP 10 Reasons to DATE a NURSE

2008-01-24T12:46:00.000+08:00

10. White Scrubs are see-through

9. They are Clean

8. They Dont Gag

7. They know your body inside out

6. They know mouth to mouth

5. Two Words : SPONGE BATH

4. They know to Penetrate Things

3. They have restraints and not afraid to use them

2. They are fantastic under pressure,

and the best reason??

1. They can go all Night Long!!!

2008 PYRO OLYMPICS

2008-01-15T14:03:00.000+08:00

Last World Pyro Olympics

Got this info from Mel, thanks.. http://www.melespa24.multiply.com/

The spectacular event is going to show its astonishing display of pyro techniques starting from February 16 (sat) and will end in March 15...

The dark skies of Manila will light-up again as the Competetion of different countries will once again be seen in the same location like last pyro olympics at the Bay Area, Mall of Asia.

February 16 - China vs Germany
February 23 - Japan vs Australia
March 1 - Korea vs Dubai
March 8 - Italy vs Venezuela
March 15 - France vs Philippines

This year, Philippines will join the competition..

imagine, we will show them the

wrath of the powerful kwitis,

pinagsama samang baby rockets

and flying watusi!! wahahah love it!

2008-01-15T13:49:00.000+08:00

Oh my.. ive been asleep for a while.. hehehe
i missed publishing my thoughts here.
well blogging is my life ever since I was free from a possesive someone.. wahaha *evil laugh*

I just want to thank those peepz who are reading my posts, reacts on my rants and been great friends to me... ^_^

Hopefuly, more adventures, unfortunate events, parties, inuman, and issues to share to you guys.. and as a request from nurse de-jour,i will start posting "naughty" adventures for a change.. ^_^
hmm.. jhed need your help with that! haha kidding..

New Year's Bliss

2008-01-01T18:52:00.000+08:00

ok. another year. another hope. another opportunity to have a better and colorful life.

Im looking forward for quite few things..
like..

My Board exam,
New Clothes..
a reunion with my long lost barkada..
new desktop (??)
new friends...
less enemies, (im not warfreak ah)
more movies to watch..
more chocolait to drink..
more oreos and pizzas to dig in...
see the new season of grey's anatomy...
the result of my prelims exams..
more gimmicks..
Singapore and HK trip (cross fingers!)
new mobilephone...
iPod..
and...

New love.. someone who can take good care of me.. haha

Christmas Blast!

2007-12-27T22:48:00.000+08:00

after my tooth got extracted, all my premonitions came true..

im not goin to follow my doctor's order! hahaha

Its the most exhausting week ever!
I never been this alive and busy (for gimmicks) hahaha!

Wednesday December 19

Block Christmas Party, Montevista, Marikina City

a cool party that was hosted by our class president and some of our officers.. it went well and asteeg,, overflowing alcoholic drinks! its the night that ive started to be pasaway!! hehehe at first, uber iwas ako uminom, but its hard to avoid it kasi lahat umiinom.. man, temptation kills! grr.. then the gurl in green stripped shirt made me drink her shots. and I started drinking na! wahahaha..

guilty as charged. hehehe

number of drinks that i consumed that night:

6 strong ice, 3 lights, 2big glasses of red horse, few shots of cossack, red and blue(i think) label, and plenty of Cuervo! yeah!

and at 3am, i went home, imagine, nag choir pa ako.. hehehe

simbang gabi from 3am to 6 am.. im soo bad.. huhuhu

Thursday December 20

Afternoon

I went to Trinity, together with Tesa and Shine, to pass our request letter for TOR. I missed my old school. astig talaga!Then Rose Anne, Grace and I went to gateway for dinner.

I also invited Lele, Crizzy and Cheeky to come over.

I met Rose Anne's BF for the first time hehehe all fun!

At around 8pm, I made my way to glorietta.. Im goin to meet my friend EJ at starbucks G4.. we're supposed to meet by 8:30 but he arrived almost 11pm.. whoah Ive waited for 2 hours!! and both of my mobilephones were bat empty! amp! He promised to make it up for me someday..and im still waiting..hahaha

1:35 am. we went to PBcom Tower to meet Hadi, Its his lunch break.. I miss my colleagues.

Friday December 21

Global Fun Carnivale, MOA

This day is rili unforgetable, my day started waking up uber late at 1pm. Meeting time is 12noon at gateway, and my dear friends are too kind to wait for me. Oh well, they love me so much hahaha.

We drove the long road of C5 and when were in Pasig City, oh my.. the car stopped in the middle of the highway.. gosh.. so funny. nauubusan ng gas. we're enjoying our road trip too much , that we forgot to refuel. coincedentaly, just infront of us is a towing service. hahaha ... the car was towed to the nearest gas station. I cant forget the people whispering when we got stucked.. "ang gaganda pa naman ng sakay, natirikan naman!!" hahaha

After exchanging gifts in the MOA's parking lot, Leo, Carole and I decide to club. So we went to Ortigas. our unfortunate day didnt end at MOA, when we arrived in Ortigas, we cant catch a cab! we waited for an hour, so we found ourselves walking to metrowalk.. oh my.. kapagod.. shucks pagdating ng metrowalk, haggard to the max and so thirsty..

a quick stop in the washroom made me fresh again..
inuman and dancin time na!

after clubin', at around 4am, we went to a videoke hub... inom na naman dun.. and 7am na nakauwi..

number of drinks that i consumed that night:

8 strong Ice and forgot the name of the beer.. haha

Saturday December 22

Yuan Bday Bash and a Movie Date

Its Yuan's 2nd Bday Celebration!

Project 4, 5pm

Happy Birthday sweetie!

After eating a lucious meal at the party, I went to glorietta again, for a dinner-movie date. We watched "Elizabeth The Golden Age" It was a nice movie. Great effects and good review of history. We ate dinner in YC.. God the cholesterol! hahaha

After the Date. 12am, I walked from Glo area to Greenbelt to makati hotels, search for a cab. Amp! I walked back to PBcom Tower to take a cab..sighs ang layo talaga! kapagod.. 2am na ako nakasakay ng cab,,, im goin to Hadi's place naman.. grabe.. when I got there, The elevator is stucked on the 14th floor. grabe. tlaga. I climb the stairs up to the 16th floor! oh great!!

what an exercise talaga..

Nkauwi na ako sa bahay ng 11am.. hahaha

More adventures to come... tinatamad na ako i post eh.. haha

Tooth Fairy ??

2007-12-19T08:54:00.000+08:00

Until now., im wondering if tooth fairy exist.. haha funny ryt,? well, cant a 20-year-old guy imagine things like things? ^_^ if tooth fairies are true to life, people will have another way to earn money! haha and il be rich for sure, il bargain for my tooth.

the tooth fairy legend has become a noted part of childhood in American culture for a long time.It was originated from old European folklore that fairies were very well known to exchange good valuables for items used by human beings.It was not until the early 90's that the tooth fairy became soo popular as a rite of passage from infancy to childhood. Although it is not attached to any religion or holiday, the legend has become uniquely associated with American culture.

it is said that the purpose of the tooth fairy legend is to ease the worry of fear of children growing up. The tooth fairy myth was probably told to reward children or give them something to look forward to when they lose a tooth, something they may have grown attached to.The tooth fairy comes to visit a child generally between the ages of 5 and 7 years, when their first baby tooth is lost. A child would put his/her lost tooth under their pillow at night and the tooth fairy would make the exchange while they were sleeping.

Ive got my tooth extracted last night.. huhuhu wrong move for me, coz today I have a christmas party to attend. My dentist told me that im prohibited to drink alcoholic beverages! @_@ what a bummer. How will enjoy my party without it,Im also not allowed to move too much or else my wound would bleed "daw". My Christmas weekend is ruined, as in! Im also going to EK on friday, and guess what, I cant ride the attractions like anchor's away and jungle log jam, coz it will bleed "daw" huhuhuhu.. oh well, I hope it will heal soon, and syempre, im pasaway, so maybe on friday, ill still enjoy the rides.. come what may,,hahaha

hurt. run over. weak.. thats my heart

2007-12-02T18:15:00.000+08:00

Those who are"Bitter" are the stronger individuals...

Wanna know why?

Because STRONG people know how to control their emotions.

and Bitter People know when to realize that it's ENOUGH and it's OVER.

BITTERNESS is not totally a negative thing.

It's just a way of showing to others that in life..
there is such thing as --

"I still Love you but I do not want you anymore...."

Why in a relationship..

we love someone so much..

overflowing...

overwhelming...

u cant sleep bec u cnt stop thinking bowt that person.

And when its over...

all left is chest pain..

tears of regret...

and

shattered heart and soul...

I know I moved on already with my past but....
what happened to me a while ago made me sad and lonely...
you will never know the importance of someone till its gone..

im happy that you've got someone
who is smart, uber kind, nice and friendly...
after the tears run down on my face again..
i felt better and totaly 100% moved on!

days before this..
i dont know when will i...
stop crying..
stop thinking insanely..
stop worrying what will happen next...

Now, Its the right time to stop all of it Justin...
time to pick yourself up, and face the new challenges of life!

Pics from blogs.amritapuri.org/122/rainbow-after-the-rain/

Cinderella's Curfew

2007-11-30T10:45:00.000+08:00

Thursday night.

A shocking news disturbed me when i got home from my hospital duty!
oh my, President GMA imposed a midnight-till-dawn curfew (12 am to 5am) all over metro manila and some parts of Luzon!

Grrr. I was about to meet my friends at around 8pm and were goin to Laffline last night! whoah what a bummer!

only few are exempted to the curfew like medical people, call center agents, those people who are goin to airports and PUV drivers...

Interior Secretary Ronaldo Puno told the press that this curfew thingy is "necessary inconvenience" to protect the peace and harmony of our country..

do we really need this?

On the brighter side, yeah it can somehow help us to control the peepz coming from the mountains to join the mutiny...
but how about the small scale vendors who are greatly affected by the official curfew?

As i heard from the recent news,

450 got arrested in the wee hours,

and almost all of them don't know

that the palace imposed a curfew.

"kawawa naman sila"

Orthopaedics

2007-11-20T22:13:00.000+08:00

Philippine Orthopedic Center.

All About Bones, Tractions and Casts!
oh dont forget the hardware gadgets! hahaha

It's my first time to have a duty outside the world of WCC! and The exprience is great! well, the smell of a government hopital is far from world citi medical center but it's still awesome! full of first time.. i felt like im just a freshman, experiencing the nursing life... though im already a graduating student,,hahaha thats how supressed I am...

Our daily duty activities at world citi medical center:
VS, meds, iv check,
walang kamatayang NCPs,
case presentations
and few nursing managements..

actually, its a routine...paulit ulit.. and everything is expected to happen...
hahaha

now, lahat bago.. new CIs and activities.. medyo ka ngarag but bearable naman... and have the oppotunity to make friends with other nursing people! hahaha

school day is back

2007-11-04T01:37:00.000+08:00

OMG I cant believe this!

Tomorrow is my first day high! (technically, last oct 30 pa nag start ung classes, d lang ako pumasok) hahaha

I cant sleep, so excited on what will happen! At last! Im back to being "normal study mode" hahaha My Neurons have been hibernating for almost 8 months now and wallah! tomorrow it will, for sure, be shocked and strained. hahaha

Im looking forward to my new classmates, i have a new block and batch,,

for those who doesnt know what happened to me, ill give you a quickie recap... Last summer class, maxado nag enjoy sa vacation and nagkaproblems kaya aun, d ako nakapag enroll, which means hindi na ako march 2008 batch (huhuhu) and sobrang naiwan na ng aking lovely batch... i also tried working for IBM na nagbigay sa akin ng acne! inabot talaga ako ng mga kamalasan,,,
but its all worth-it din coz i met new circle of friends! they're all great and fab!
hahaha

now, so glad that im back to school na! hmm sino kaya ang prof na susuko sa akin!? ^_^

reborn

2007-10-29T21:03:00.000+08:00

^_^

hayyz, sobrang tagal na din nung last entry ko aH! so busy lately kaya d man lang makapag-update ng latest happening and adventures ko! hahaha daming nangyari for the past few months... some of friends flew to US na and some are still bitchin around the block,, -_-

ako, same same. been busy in finishing my freakin thesis and completing my requirements in my minor subjects...

this coming 2ndsem, im a regular student again..
im so psyched and cant wait to have duties again...
the unbearable ci..
finishing a meal in just 5 mins...
bp and thermo..
medications...
the makulit and pasaway na student nurse is bacK!!

Last adventure:

Saturday night with ikay, rob and Yom! we went to decades metrowalk, the hippest place to be that night (sarcastic) hahaha well, honestly, its not. because the security and waiters are buzzing off the people who are trying to come in! argh! they're scraing them by telling them.. "sir hangang 12am lang po kami.. ban ksi ang alcholic drinks for the upcoming elections.." syempre when peepz hears this, naku.. nagmamadaling umalis! grr..

anyhow, we enjoyed the night, inuman session nalang! asaran and kulitan! and we have the whole place for ourselves! hahaha

ayan yom and rob, update na ako kahit konti,,

and for you my sweet biatch who are always leaving comments na d naman maganda.. well its yourt opinion and i respect it.. i know who you are and stop it.. napaka pathetic naman ng ginagawa mo just to get revenge..if its revenge nga.. haha basta ang lowlife mo..

my dear readers im sorry if sometimes may mali sa gramar or something., well when im writing tuloy tuloy kasi and hindi scrtipted eh, kaya ayun sa sobrang pagmamadali may mga lapses,, and nakakahiya, but d ko na pinapansin.. its enough for me that i share what i have and im proud of what i am! hahaha blogging is my outlet para sa mga frustrations and exciting advntures ko eh!

FHM girl next door

2007-10-29T20:53:00.000+08:00

Text FHMGND 23 to 7399..
orvisit the Girl Next Door voting page at www.FHM.com.phorfill out the downloadable ballot and fax it at (632) 637-2206...

you can also download my MMS photo by texting FHMGND PIC 23 to 7399
(each MMS download is equivalent to 5 votes!)
GO!! vote for my friend ha!!!! number 23!!! hehehe vote! vote! vote

START VOTING sa NOVEMBER okies!

Mira is my dear friend and classmate!

oh so hot and so baet din!
please vote for her! hahaha

The hardest exam ever

2007-10-10T21:58:00.001+08:00

Get Your Own Quiz!, More Quizzes

Separated

2007-10-04T21:45:00.000+08:00

This is really a nice song!

haha

agree with me???

Separated by usher...

Oh no, no, no, no

If love was a bird
Then we wouldn't have wings
If love was a sky
We'd be blue
If love was a choir
You and I could never sing
Cause love isn't for me and you

If love was an Oscar
You and I could never win
Cause we can never act out our parts
If love is the Bible
Then we are lost in sin
Because its not in our hearts

So why don't you go your way
And I'll go mine
Live your life, and I'll live mine
Baby you'll do well, and I'll be fine
Cause we're better off, separated

If love was a fire
Then we have lost the spark
Love never felt so cold
If love was a light
Then we're lost in the dark
Left with no one to hold

If love was a sport
We're not on the same team
You and I are destined to lose
If love was an ocean
Then we are just a stream
Cause love isn't for me and you

So why don't you go your way
And I'll go mine
Live your life, and I'll live mine
Baby you'll do well, and I'll be fine
Cause we're better off, separated

Girl I know we had some good times
It's sad but now we gotta say goodbye
Girl you know I love you, I can't deny
I can't say we didn't try to make it work for you and I
I know it hurts so much but it's best for us
Somewhere along this windy road we lost the trust
So I'll walk away so you don't have to see me cry
It's killing me so, why don't you go

So why don't you go your way
And I'll go mine
Live your life, and I'll live mine
Baby you'll do well, and I'll be fine
Cause we're better off, so much better off

Cause we're better off, so much better off
So much better off...
Seperated

I'm sorry we didn't make it...

moving forward

2007-09-15T16:46:00.000+08:00

After seconds of romantic walks..
After minutes of sweet talks..
After hours of buying stuffs in the mall together..
After days of eating chocolates, watching movies and dining out...
After weeks of whining, fighting and awful rants...
After Months of sleepless nights..

its over..
im broken..
but still...

looking forward for a better tom...

bein positive,
eat lots of chocolates,
watch tv series (mga pirata dvds form hidalgo),
back to reality,
drink...

my steps in recuperating...

ill back on my feet soon..
i hope so..

justin you are free now.

a moment for my cuz

2007-09-09T23:37:00.000+08:00

sad. sad. sad.

im so sad coz my 11-year-old cousin passed away just last week.
so sudden.
unexpected.

we went last night to her wake, I cant even look at her. I dont want to see her inside the coffin... huhuhu I want my memory to see her smiling face, her laughs and giggles.. but i need to see her for the very last time... i know i cant attend her crimation ceremony thats why i made my last look at her before leavin the chapel...

please pray for the soul of my cousin, isabel sabaricos aldana...

a cute angel.

I appreciate your prayers. tc

what a night!

2007-08-30T23:39:00.000+08:00

after a long day of house cleaning, As usual, my sister, yuki, katrina and I, went to Gateway to eat dinner. well, thats a routine every thursday, we will go out for dinner or a movie or something.. hehe at first, I thought its just another typical thursday gateway night but at my surprise, many things had happened! as in, its all unexpected.

it all started after eating a luscious heavy dinner. while we are walking and looking a dress for my sister,

First we saw my sister's friend from TIP, i think he needs help with his mobilephone so we helped him.

After that, we all walk to starbucks araneta. when we got there, they decided that its better if were goin to starbucks gateway! oh my girls really change their minds so quickly. haha sometimes their weird.

anyway, before we headback to the mall, we saw another friend, John Paul, our friend/schoolmate from Elementary and happens to be an "x" suitor of my sister. haha so funny, my sister tried to avoid to be seen by my JP coz she's wearing her PE uniform from UST. hahaha but unfortunately, too late for her. were been spoted so we just greeted him.

then we went inside the mall,
we are on our way to starbucks, actually were near to starbucks when I saw someone.

OH my GOD!! as in, im shocked.
Its my "X"!! the most recent x! and X is with the new BF! wahahaaha

Im so shocked that I dont know what to do and react. I dont know where to go. Should I hide or something. My heart was pounding so hard. hahaha
I never experienced this before.

il tell you a short recap why im like a frantic freak. haha my X and I broke up bec "x" told me that im giving too much love.something like that... weird ryt. so vague.. so after the bearkup I never see "x' again until just a while ago. haha Its really recent, we brokeup i think last Jan. good thing is I moved on and found a better and much lovable person!

back to the story, I totaly dont know what to do.
I just look far away and asked my friends and sister..
"dali.. alis na tayo dito.. wag na tayo dito.."
haha they asked me why. i ddnt respond.

and they noticed my "X" coz my sister knew X eh.
X also avoid seein me and face his new bf.
their just actually standing in front of this boutique that time.

waahhh! im not so ready to see X but well twist of fate. my bad. X saw me in my ugliest appearance..hahaha Dont know why im conscious but its really an X factor! hahaha ^_^

to be continued... tomorrow..

Fishy Fishy!

2007-08-30T23:03:00.000+08:00

what a fishy day! haha.. I cleaned and scrub my aquarium at last! its really hard to clean coz the water on my aquarium is already murky. ive been so busy lately and my poor flowerhorn suffered a lot because of me. hehehe

Blue Phoenix and reddie dragon!

after cleaning it. *phew* my hard work paid off.

coz now its so wonderful to look at.. so relaxing and of course!
CLEAN!!!
hehehe

Hairspray and Scents!

2007-08-25T17:16:00.000+08:00

"Welcome to Baltimore..."

I watched the Musical Movie, "Hairspray" yesterday at SM Centerpoint.
It's wonderful and hilarious! well, John Travolta really tickled my funnybone.
The movie is about Hairspray, Culture and ethnicity and Discrimination.

I heard the real musical play was better but watching it on the silver screen is a great experience!!!

I watched it with my sister, and her two bestfriends evah!

Katrina Corazon (coracorazon)! just kidding...

Treat me and my sister second time around..
and
Elizabeth--- we waited for her for 30 mins.. galing kasi sa school and nagpalit pa!

ang kulit namin. from LRT Anonas Station to V.Mapa, non-stop tawanan at laitan.. niloloko namin si Elizabeth at Katrina na mag raket nalang kami,,, hahaha "magkano ka katrina??" ung mga ganung banat! wahahaha... hanggang makarating kami sa SM inaasar pa din namin..

laki na ng gutom namin when we got there, nagutom kakahintay kay Beth! ampfufufufu! we ate at Greenwich. naku. pati ung crew pinagtripan. he's name is jay jr.. nakakatawa. crush daw kasi ni beth,,, eh nung natapos kami kumain, nag bigay ng survey form ung crew then sinabi namin na crush nia nga..wahahaha ang loko lokong Beth kinilig naman, haha We left Beth's number, well actually kay Katrina ung binigay ko..haha and sobrang classic ng pagbigay,hahaha I wrote it in a Tissue Paper.. hehehe

tapos ng pagtrip sa greenwich we went to the movie house na... in there we noticed this amazing and unforgetable scent. shux. kabaliw. ang bango kasi. amppfufufu nalimutan ko kasi ung name nung perfume kaya nakakabaliw. uhm if you want to lure me, use the most astonishing perfume or eu de toillete in town! and im sure you'll get my attention! hehehehe

another brand new day

2007-08-22T11:39:00.000+08:00

last night. ive been a wrecked. totaly gone into the darkness. cant stop the emo moments. dont know why. damn this life. hate it. i thought of so many things. my past, my life so far and whats for the future. confused and lost.

dont know what to do. dont know whats right and wrong.
hahaha maybe im just crazy.

after the all the stupid emo moments, ive found out that the answer to all my problems is...

already in front of me. Its simple.
just... Love it.
go with the flow...

I must let go of all of the anger, hate, and grudge insinde me.
forgive all my enemies.
love 'em, and leave it all behind...

I asked dvdx.. why me...? why you choose me?
dvdx replied..

"im confident that you love me, the assurance that you wont look for someone else.. your serious about us and... you are you.."

sweet and well said... but my conscious mind are killing me... im not that "good guy" image.. totaly. i find myself aS stubborn, hotheaded, gullible, crazy boyfriend... ^_^ im not that big..

im not promoting myself or something but almost all of the people I asked that question tell me the same answer. good to hear that. but still im not perfect. lacking something inside out. not confident to all my abilities to love... wahhH!
im really a crazy guy.. maybe thats the reason many people love me.. insanely wonderful!

flippin' the pages

2007-08-06T15:08:00.000+08:00

Im so bored and dont have anything to do.,.
im done with my thesis..
and im too lazy to play gameboy.. *sigh*

soo I decided to look at my past testimonials...
its like looking back at all my constructive criticism
from my friends and family.

and here are some of 'em that

struck me. so funny..

from Rochena...my very first testimonial... Posted 11/12/2003 04:33

"haha, si justin, pag kasama mo 'to, laftrip =)
he's a comic act... hehe =)
we have a LOT of things in common: Charmed, Buffy,
Harry Potter, Barq's (lol =)) and i can go on and on =) haha,
noong summer bago mag4th yr. lng kami naging close =)
through... about... 4 hours phone conversation and text messages... natatandaan mo pa? lol =)
anyway, after that, nagkukwentuhan na lang kami about anything,
and i mean anything =)
oi, oo nga pala, don't feel guilty about sa di mo pag ice-skate, ok lang yon no! =)ummm...
oi, he's a true friend: he can sense if you're happy,
pissed off or whatever... and he's there to help you out too...
oi, justin, thanks talaga for everything: the conversations/debates about buffy last year, the charmed sisters thingy,
for not telling others about whatever i ask not to tell
(but they know now anyway >=()
and other stuff =) hehe, andami eh! thanks for everything!!!!!!! =) =) =) =)"

Crizzy said.. Posted 02/05/2005 20:16

"c justin???? masasabi k lng dito
sobrang KULIT..... nging klasm8 k sya
nung 2nd sem at pati ngaun....first
impression k d2 makulit at un 22o nga....
hnd sya mahirap pakisamahn kya cguro
marami syang frends....
cge e2 lng muna testi k ala akng
maisip ngaun e......testik rn ha!!!!!!"

LELE said..Posted 29/08/2006 08:06
"Justin!!!

my super buddy! Lagi kaming nag-uusap sa phone sa ym, nagtataka nga ung iba bakit di daw kami nagsasawang mag-usap. Oh well, ganun talaga. Parehas kaming madaming kwento!

Mas kilala na namin yung isa't-isa ngayon. Marami na akong alam sa kanya. Ganun din siya saken (?). Kung akala niyo good boy 'to. Haha. Nakakatawa naman. madaming kalokohan din 'to.

Si justin sooper FLIRTY!!!
Super TAKAW!
GALANTE din pag may pera!
SWEET, UNDERSTANDING, THOUGHTFUL at
LAITERO! hahaha! naku, nasa nature na ata namin yan.
GAHAMAN din yan sa pagkain! haha!
pero, sobrang cool frend yan. MAhilig sa GIMIK! sooobra! haha! kahit duty na, basta Gala, okay! haha! bilib nga ako jan eh.

saka. super friendly yan. sobrang gullible at sobrang SLOW. ewanco ba jan. dati, di naman yan ganyan. Yan cguro ang nagagawa ng pagiging. *uhum*. nevermind!

Ingat lagi Juz! Stay happy!
Love yah! mwah!"

Rose Anne Posted 02/05/2005 19:46

"si justin ay ang aking mabait na
kaklase... nung 2nd sem e hndi naman
kmi masyaong nag uusap nyan,.. ewan
ko b?? natatakot ata ako dyan dati e...
hehe.. pero ngaun ok na.. sya nga eh..
bait pla to khit papano!!.. kc nung dati
arti arti nyan eh.. parang girl!! pero d na
msyado ngaun.. ano p b?? ewn!! e2 na
muna ah!! gagawan n lng kta uli sa
susunod para masaya,,,isip muna ako :)
pakabait k!!!"

house searchin'

2007-07-26T09:47:00.000+08:00

oh my! this day sucks!

Im tired (eventhough I just woke up!) and I dont want to move a muscle... I need to go to my workplace and pass my resignation letter,,, but im too stubborn to move an inch... maybe ill go to Ayala tomorrow.

Im absent yesterday in my nutrition class (not again) and if my professor will be pissed off, ill be fda on that subject.. whoah! I cant afford to drop that subject.. I love it even its really easy....

later, my sister wants me to come with her to look for a house to rent... She is planning to move out for personal reasons.. hayy, so much cleaning to do... well ill have the bigroom for myself (house party!). Sad but she really needs to secretly move out.. hahaha

speaking of houses,
last week, I went to Cainta for a house blessing!
its crizzey's new crib! Astig un pare!
the house is s0o0o0o BIG.
Lots of spaces and plenty of rooms.
Its a two storey house..
Big Lawn and big red gate..
wonderful veranda,
paintings hanging on the wall,
big beds that cost at around 30 to 40k(expensive),
chandeliers are everywhere..
astonishing kitchen,
cute washrooms and powder rooms!
just picture this.. one of your dream houses, that what it looks like..

We arrived there at 4pm and we expected that were already late but damn,
the priest came late too. we waited for 2 hours before he came in..
well I I cant blame him, The exclusive village is in the heart of Cainta...

the house is really great but one thing keeps me wondering..
their big red gate...
I asked her,
"Why do have a big gate...? your car is in the province...?"
haha she just frowned at me and replied...
"Justin talaga! kontrabida" haha
im not really an antagonist but im just curious why its soo big... hehehe

WHO ARE YOU?

2007-07-19T11:06:00.000+08:00

the tagline of the newest updated Gameboy Advance SP..

"who are you?"

After a long wait... I finally got a gameboy SP! Ive been longing for this gadget for over months and someone gave me a SP! Im soo glad and excited to feel my very own GB SP!

hahaha I have a new mobilephone. A great relationship and now a Nintendo GB SP!

what could I ask for?? haha one step at a time, my dreams are coming true!

The upgraded Gamboy Advance SP comes with a brighter backlit screen. It enhanced the gameboy experience when playing. This brighter edition is better coz it gaves me a clearer view of the game. It brings out the sharpness and graphic richness of the gameboy advance games. The poor performance of it just the same like the other gameboy advance, its sounds.. you need a headset to have a good quality of the background music of your game..

playing gameboy is really addicting..

you know.. once you got hold of it, you cant stop playin it..

I love playing POKEMON! haha lame? nah! even im 20teen, I still love pokemon..

so hook with this pocketmonsters! I even want to buy stuffs that have pokemon characters on it! haha! well cant change my child like attitude.. ^_^

fire the formula!

2007-07-19T10:41:00.000+08:00

when weekend comes, what comes in to your mind??

to unwind..
revitalize,
family day,
recuperate from stress...
and so many other things..

but for me,
Weekend nights are Fab Nights!!
yeah!

its been a while since I went out for clubbing.
Ive been hibernating for so long i missed lot of things in the real world...
its just like what happened here in my blog.. so dull. no entries. no people reading my stuff..

anyhow,
my saturday night went great.
my blood for clubbing arise again from deep slumber!
My dvdx, dvdx' colleagues from HSBC (certified party goers) and I,
went to Formulah bar in Tomas Morato..
its same same, nothing is new at formula's..
wait I think they've added some couches and tables.. hehehe
whats funny is my friends from WCC is just across formula bar..
that time they're in clubbers, the newest club at morato..

Its really fun and exciting to be alive again..haha

Finally gave in..

2007-07-19T10:40:00.000+08:00

For the past week I was taking calls... People keeps on calling just to ask why their bills are so high! exhausting but I enjoy every moment they're venting out their problems..blah blah blah.. hehehe

Few days to go.. im going to join the tenured agents on the floor and the most unexpected thing happened!

my body fianlly gave in.. I catch colds last Saturday.. I didn't realize it will be worst.. amp.. Sunday, I got high fever and it lasted for two days more... Im awol for twothree days now and our family doctor advised me to stay home and rest for a week.. im over fatigue and burnedout!

huhuhu.. i ont have any choice but to resign.. so sad...
the people around were saying that my Health is more important than money.. hell yeah! but im goin to miss my work station, my colleagues.. and my mentors.. hayy i got attached to them and now its hard to leave them like this...

go-3-go

2007-06-26T02:13:00.000+08:00

Last 23,

were 3..

still together,,,

challenges are always with us...

heated up things..

yet..

were together,,

hehehe

thank God,

I finally found someone,

who will be with me...

...on the rest of my life.

stupid mistake....

2007-06-26T01:48:00.000+08:00

so sad...
Last Saturday Morning.. at around 4am,
I took my DOTS examination,, and the result...

damn! I failed.. Hate to admit it..
but Its not going out of my system...

Its all my fault, my brain cells are not working and Im not feeling well that time!
Its really funny though, I start my first DOTS with a passing percentage of 90,
then 85, next is 80...

and last saturday... 70! gosh!
the exam was so hard only two from our group passed the DOTS...

DOTS is an examination in our process/product training, it will determine if we will procede
to Lab Life, our Production Training,,, huhuhu

hopefully, all of us will pass, and God have mercy, its been two months of working for IBM]
and it will be a grieving moment if Im not going to make it...

School vs Work

2007-06-19T14:54:00.000+08:00

I mentioned here that im working now,
actually training kinda working..hehehe confusing ayt?
im Officially an IBMer
what am i doin there...

8 hours a day(night),
sitting in my comfty chair,
listening to my smart and friendly trainer,
eyes on the lcd screen of my PC,
drinking choco latte... and so on...

bottomline: Im getting paid to be trained in my account..hahaha good compensation....

sounds cheesy...?
nah! honestly, its hard to cope
coz i need to focus to every little details that my trainer says...
We also have 2 DOTS (exams) everyweek and passing is 85%...
the pressure is so high I need to keep my self awake in wee hours...

now, here's my problem...

Ive got school classes in the morning.
I enrolled for minor subjects, few units but its difficult.
I just learned that bein a working student is not an easy task.
I only get 2 hours of sleep..
my eyes are sore and always experiencing head ache...

I miss school so much,
sometimes I cant attend my classes,
All I want to do is to sleep and rest!

but i cant do that,
I cant recuperate..

Classes in school starts at 7 or 8 am, ends by 3 or 4...
i need to take a bath after that and prepare for work.

I need to get to Ayala by 6:30pm and my shift ends by 5am... hahaha

Imagined my life???

what to choose...

good (high) compensation, thrilling skyscraperz at night, and good office environment

-----or----

good quality education, degree in college, all white uniform...

wahhhh! I want it all,
but I think few months from now,
I need to prioritize and choose which is the best for me...

its fun and fab, ryt...
but..
damn! its freakin hard and I might break down... hehe -_-

Last years in College!

2007-06-19T14:36:00.000+08:00

Highschool days are one of the most exciting moments in my life..

well, It's so wonderful. Everday, Im with my friends.. so called "barkada --> b2f"
sharing gossips, non stop teasing, playing around, burning the bushes of the neighbors haha!, drink, etc... I really missed it so much! Quite many things Ive learned, so many things Ive encountered and moments to reminisce and laugh in the future...

Then college life came, its not that different from HS but people here are more serious and most of the times, have their own lives to manage and dont even care bowt the others.... They said that, if your not ready for college, you'll have a culture shock... well not for me! thank God I went to a great university (Trinity University of Asia) and there I witnessed different culture, life and social norms... It was easy for me to adopt coz in my freshie years, all of us were fresh grads and we dont have any second coursers...

haha another trip to memory lane.. bored you to death...? hehehe

Im greatful that Im graduating college soon and all im feelin right now is mixed emotions..

what is life at "Twen-Teen"???

2007-06-08T20:34:00.000+08:00

A big day for me,

imagine that, im already 20-teen!
still not sinking in... hahaha

I really missed writing my thoughts and
feelings here in my "munting blog"
So busy. (as always)...
Its like just yesterday when I typed my entry about me turning 20 and whalla!
The moment has arrived.

I started my day, with a big smile when I saw my "dvdx" looking at me,
I cant stand my dvdx' angelic face... oh my! heaven must be missing someone!
I woke up early this morning because my mobilephone keeps on beepin and beeping!
My Closest friends are sending their greetings and shoutouts... very sweet of them!

ofcourse, being a proud filipino, I expected what their messages would be after their greeting "Happy Birthday!!!"
can you make a guess what it is...??? -_- yeah your right,

it is "KELAN ANG LIBRE!!!!" :-) Haha
I have the answer for that prepared already
- - -> "next time,,,"

I was planning to treat them weeks ago but my good rich employer havent released my paychecks yet so my plans were spoiled and now im broke...

anyway, The rest of my day went well.
when I arrived at IBM (late for the first time), my colleagues sang loudy a birthday song for me..
I was really overwhelmed and on that moment, if only iv got a fairer skin tone, they'll see me blushing. I was really astonished how kind and close they are to me.... and the sad part there, Its our last day for Voice and accent training!! huhuhu...

I also take my written and listening exam today. wahhh i suck big time. I made so many mistakes in answering those easy questions esp in the different states of US!! it is soooo easy, and dumb of me to be confused and got 10 mistakes....

after the exam, its the verdict. the result of my call simulation yesterday will be announced. "what would be my PEG score..?" a question that keep disturbing me while im eating my mcspaghetti and bread from park and go... the results will be announced after our 1 hour break and cant wait for it any longer. colds sweats, fast heartbeats and too much tension is all I feel.

when my trainer, eric arrived exactly after an hour, weve been called one by one, alphabetically, thank God my Surname is letter B!

when i was called, im half deaf and freakin tremblin'
lubdub lubdub lubdub.... then eric said...

"justin your PEG score is... oh wait a minute.." what the!??? he made me more nervous and crack a joke before saying my score! hmp! then he said...
"... your PEG score is 7.31!!!!" huh? i didnt heared it so, i didnt react and all i hear was a loud applause.

"huh? what?" i said. and they're all laughing.
"sorry eric..? what's my score..?
eric replied, "Congratulations Justin, see you at PBCOM in Ayala! and by the way, Happy Birthday!"

I shouted yosh and thanked Eric so many times.

well, cant help it, what a wondeful day!

And to top it all, eric announced our schedules for the process training.
We have two shifts, 5am to 2:30pm and 8pm to 5:30am...

now another problem, we cant choose what sked were going to be assigned.
i was shaking again and nervous coz I cant be in the morning shift.
Gosh! I have school classes in the morning so i need to get in the night shift.
I told eric that i Badly need that sked and He asked the others who are willing
to switch shifts with me...
at my surprise, 3 of my colleagues raised their hands.
the most heartwarming line they said in chorus,
"I can do that for Justin...!" wahhh!
im so thankful for their kindness and understanding!
Thank God there are still good people on this world!!!

summer time

2007-05-16T14:39:00.000+08:00

Is it just me, or it is so damn hot!?

now summer time is nearly waving its goodbye but not for me its just starting.

hahaha!
my summer vacation ---> went great.

From the mountains of Baguio
to the pool sides of resorts in Pampanga.

Delicious treats of Pangasinan
to drooling summer flava of different dishes...

I love this year's summer vacation.
Total fun...

next trip?
hmm were planning to...

go to Pagudpud.. giant waves!!
explore the Batanes group of Islands....
enjoy the sizzling hot sun while on the white sands of Puerto Gallera!
dance from dusk till dawn on the hottest night spots in the metro.
and many more..

my friends and I are still planning for more adventures
and more exciting places to visit...

i just got one more problem...

my wallet... haha
naghihingalo na,,,

many things have changed

2007-05-01T14:08:00.000+08:00

its almost two months from the last entry ive posted here. and with that two months, ive encountered so many exciting adventures and thrilling escapades!

First, Ive finally met someone who is my counter-part, the one that made my world upside down. Then I learned new things, Cried a lot when I found out that Im not going to take my summer class, Miss my friends and so on...

Life..

is full of ups and down. but
ive also discover that one must always be positive.
drive the negativity away from you.
it will ruin your life.!

its funny though that i still tackle issues about life.
haha

change topic...
wahhh! Spiderman 3! a great movie. too bad we tried to watch it in the Imax theater but the tickets were sold out! grrr. now i know what ill do for the upcoming Harry Potter . SECURE tickets a month before the opening! -_-

confusion and decisions

2007-03-14T09:50:00.000+08:00

life is becoming
harder and harder as we grow old.

i miss the times when
all I worry about is...

what anime should I watch?
which of this toys are the best?
how can I buy that gameboy advance?
is my shirt cool?
what will my friends react if I cant go out with them?
I want the new release deck of Pokemon trading cards!
watching tv instead of reviewing my notes in school,,,,
and so on...

In 3 months time,
My TEEN-age years will be over
and twenties, here i Come.
i must enjoy it now for I cant be 19 again.

im soo confused.
i dont know what to do.
i still want to be
a kid. a teen.
less worries. less stress.

sad to say but
i dont know if im ready for big responsibilities.
choices should be decided critically.
wrong move and my life could be ruined.

i hope, when I reached the
20th year of my life,
Ill be mature enough to
face all the challenges in life.

yet still have that
child-like
personality...

Im back!! yipee! :-)

2007-03-14T09:08:00.000+08:00

yahoo!

its a long break!
i miss posting here..

what happened to me while i'm gone?

hmm let see..

> Ive passed my Semi Final Exam in Medical Surgical Nursing..
Out of 40, only 18 passed the exam. next is my comprehensive exam next week.

> Got thesis and case presentation grade of above 80%. (yosh!)

> Watched movies, twice a week, kahit busy na! hehe
300.. asteeeg!

> Fiesta Fiesta mania! in bulacan and taytay, Rizal.

> met new friends.

> participated in church activities.

> my friend's dad died last mar. 7 before the day of our case pres (sad..)

> Tesa got injured in their bike accident with Rose Anne! sumemplang..
Astig un kasi kala ng mga tao patay na sila! haha sabay tayo and say "Sakay Rose Anne". :-) si leslie naman nag paka bayani and she ran without her shoes even its a rocky road!

> sleep over in leslie's place!

> eat. eat. eat.

and the MOST devastating of them all...

My Mobilephone was stolen last mar.9! Hmmp! It was so surprising that it was stolen inside our house, in my room, its in the second floor, inside my drawer. I know who stole it soo God may forgive that person!! grr..! KARMA din yan!

busy for sure

2007-02-26T23:34:00.000+08:00

Time is moving so fast!
this coming thursday its march na!
hay.... busy busy busy...

im already cramming to death!
I have so many things to accomplish by this week then next week!

Its JUDGEMENT WEEK!!!

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my sked:

Monday - - - Mar. 5
Comprehensive Examination in
Maternal and Child and
Medical Surgical Nursing!
coverage: cover to cover volume 1 and 2, hand outs
and my thick notebook.

Tuesday - - - Mar. 6
Defense for my thesis proposal
(Gosh! that defense is soo expensive it cost me P1,500.00!!!)

Thursday - - - Mar. 8
Defense for our Case Presentation!

Friday - - - Mar. 9
Play Presentation: Rizal "last farewell"

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after this.. well ithink i need a long break!
ill be crazy and be the "patient" if not!
haha sabog2 na! amp

heart's day

2007-02-16T11:49:00.000+08:00

Valentine's Day is surely celebrated and been a custom to all of us..

Chocolates...
Stuff Animals..
Flowers...
candle lit dinner..
etc...

awww..

LOVE is in the air..

lucky me, i have friends who are also ~singles~
and spent their day with me!

we watched a movie in Rob Galleria...
The Messenger!!

All I did inside the movie house was laugh and laugh and laugh..
and I know, I looked like a lunatic that time! Its a suspense-thriller movie for God's sake but my friends are soo funny and hilarious!!!

Looking at their facial expressions and screams, award winning!even before the shocking moments of the film comes up, they are already Shouting and hiding their faces with their hankerchiefs!

and addition to that, they are the only ones who are screaming and reacting to the scenes.. Well its really shocking and creepy. but to see them like that.. I cant help it but to giggle!

Fellowship of the Candle in a glass...

2007-02-14T22:30:00.000+08:00

It all started last Feb. 10 at DairyQueen (DQ) Araneta...

6 Individuals sweared to bare it all..
Talked about the things that aren't discussed
in a typical friendly group sharings...

we all agreed to keep our secrets

within the circle and be

proud of the things we've done... hahaha

one sure thing....

"if there is a candle in a glass around,

anything can happen...."

GLOBE sucks big time!

2007-02-02T10:54:00.000+08:00

globe changed their unlimited texting fees!

now, more expensive and definitely not worthit spendingmoney with.

their rates:

NOW -------------- Before

1 day - - P20 ------ P15
2days - - P40 ------ P25
4days - - P80 ------ P50 (5days dude!)

amp!

hmp! vision from the past!

2007-01-30T17:13:00.000+08:00

I was cleaning my room and decided to take a peek at my pokemon stuffs that I already kept in my so-called-Baul (it's just a big tupperware box hehe). I just want to see again my Trading cards and my Gameboy.. I missed them so much..
When I was in my HS days.. I always play those cards almost everyday with my friends. Imagine me playing and fighting over those damn cards!! nyahaha!

BUT!!! as I open that big box, this paper inside of a clear envelope surprised me!

hmp! this paper made my heart jump!

My forgotten past zoomed back again into my reality...

seems like, it just happend yesterday..

Good times and Bad times of my past relationship! Oh my!

All cluttered up in my mind!

I dont know if I should be happy or not seeing again this artistic letter...

one thing for sure, it made my eyes a little teary.

sometimes...big guys like me also need their "emo moments.."

am i right?? hehe

~sometimes letting it out, could make a big difference...~

wave89.1

chillin' somewhere downtown

2007-01-27T11:53:00.000+08:00

Last night I watched a movie with Carole and Mark!

A Night at the Museum.

It's a great movie to watch!
I recommend it to those people who likes to have fun and at the same time learn few things about history. It's Funny and very interesting movie. It's also educational.

If your bored to death and got nothing to do right now? It's weekend dude! come on! get those butts off the couch and go to the nearest movie house and have some fun.

dont like this movie? well, there is also other new releases in the big screen that you could choose from. Like Eragon and Saw3!!!

yikes! looks like im also going to watch another movie later! c u at the cinemas!

for a moment.. im in a bliss..

2007-01-25T00:10:00.000+08:00

I just got home, and its already 12:50am... I went to my friend's house, got myself busy again and pre-occupied...

phew.. its been 2 days and im trying to move on and live my life again as if nothing happened..

all bad feelings were kept inside.. trying to burst out any time... but im good in keeping it all tight together and good luck for me, if it will loose a little, il be in an emo breakdown again.. hope not..

anyhow, things happen for a reason. I realized that all the pain and loneliness that Im having right now were over clouding all the great things that Ive experienced before and magically happened to me!

All the laughs, the gimmicks, the cold night while walking beside the river(haha! river nga!), food trips!, going to church activities, food trip again, movies gallore, Thank God for DQ, and much much more....

This wonderful things made me realized that even it didn't work out, ive learned a lot of thngs...

thank you for walking with me in the journey of life... eventhough it's short and fast, for a moment, im in a bliss... just like heaven! yeah!

moment for my late tito

2007-01-17T21:39:00.000+08:00

I went to the wake of my bestfriend's father in batangas city last monday. ive been there for two days. Im so shocked when I heard the news.. so so sad.. im so close to their family that i also feel how hard it is. Everything is very unxpected... to my fellow bloggers.. please pray for my tito's soul.. I'll appreciate it... God Bless!

Fireworks-go-gaga!

2007-01-14T17:13:00.000+08:00

Mall of Asia
Saturday Jan. 13

one big event! "the greatest Show in the earth"

Last night, I went to MOA to see te last leg of the World Pyro Olympics this year which was s0o0o0o incredible and astonishing. It's pity though that I wasn't able to see last week display from other countries like australia,and USA.

I had an another adventure!
Me and my friends endured the rush hour ride in the MRT
(in the women's coaster -- girls gone wild!! haha),

walk from Taft Station to the Mall of Asia
(imagine this, all people were walking in the big avenue, we can't get ourselves a cab, and a big traffic jam is just beside us! cars, jeepney and buses were not moving at all),

wait i forgot to mention that Im wearing my Duty UNiform!! yup! im in my all white uniform!! phew!

Pushing back people who were pushing me (sorry I cant help it!)

watched the fireworks dispay from China in the grass area near Blue Wave (Were still walking that time when the event started!)

walk again... and finally in the entrance of the pyrolympics....

We waited for an hour or so before the Philippnes showed their spectacular fireworks!!

______________________________________

after the event we are all hungry, feeling unwell, back pain is starting to buildup, thirsty and haggard!!!

sa mga kainan... pang ilan kami..?? hmmm

Superbowl of China - - 5th on the list (umalis kami to find another place to eat)
Gerry's - - 9th on the list
Shakey's, Teriyaki Boy, - - back of the long line
Back again in Super Bowl of China
- - - 16th on the long list!!! (and after waiting for minutes, the manager said, "Im sorry but we cant offer any rice toppings or any meals with rice! Holy Cow!! amp!)

luckly, when we went to congo grille were 5th on list and waited for several minutes and its fiesta time!!!

new year. new strange things to encouter

2007-01-02T21:36:00.000+08:00

oh my! i can't believe it's already 2oo7!!!

time pass by so fast...

Last year was a blast!!

many things happened...

friends gained...
"BAKEKANG FEVER!!""
touched a soul...
passed my exams...
lived a rollercoaster life...

It's been a great year for me...

i hope this year there could be some changes..

more luck.
bigger smiles.
crazier life.

One Day. One Night. All Fun!

2006-12-22T13:00:00.000+08:00

One of the greatest time of my life was yesterday!!!

I really didn't expect those things to happen...

____________________________________________

First stop, my long wait was over...

Early in the morning, my aunt wake me up,
and i was shocked when she told me that were going to
buy a new mobile phone.
I thought Im just going with her but surprisingly,
She told me that its for me!!!! @_@
yosh!!!

____________________________________________

Bowler's Club...

In the afternoon, Me and Miami met in Gateway. Oh my God!

Nakipag-unahan talaga kami sa pagkuha ng taxi!! were going to gale to see kat and gene!

yipee! so fun fun! nag bowling kami, then humabol si Red to join in our game.

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After Bowling... ICE SKATING Time!!! ^_^

Intrams?? hehe

after our so called bowling tournament, (I won the second place haha!!),

we all went to Mega mall to continue our adventure! There, we all decided to skate on ice! It's been a long time since I skate so as i wore my ice skating shoes, GOOD LUCK!!! ang hirap! ang sakit sa legs!!! No pain NO gain!! hehehe

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Fun Fun at Project 6

2006-12-18T12:39:00.000+08:00

What an exciting day, December 17.

I went to Project 6 to see the love of my life.
Actually, I met them at SM north EDSA which is sooooo congested yesterday!
I think people are already having their Christmas Shopping,
but is it too early for that?

Anyway, Rain bought her gift for Phim at Guess,
and then we went to the clubhouse (near the Mt.Carmel church in proj.6
**my dear, next time, not mt.carmel clubhouse ah!!hehe kidding**)
where their other friends are already waiting.
It's late in the afternoon so I haven't witnessed the binyag.
as always, LATE!! hehe

After enjoyin' the breeze outside, we went to Dino's HOuse nearby.
Well, watever happens there, will stay there!!! ^_^
so fun fun!!!
the night was cold and the hymns of christmas songs
from the church could be heard from the outside.

At that moment,
Im craving for "puto bungbong" my favorite christmas season food
but im soo tired to go outside and buy!
hehehe... so happy!

Princess Hours Revisited

2006-12-18T10:52:00.000+08:00

It's amazing that in Channel 2 their going to air one of my favorite korean dramas!
PRINCESS HOURS!!!!

It's one of my favorite coz it's story is so cute and every scene is full of shocking and "kilig" moments! I finished watching it for 1 week last June and until now, Im not getting tired of watching it over and over again. My favorite part in Princess HOurs is when every ending of each episode, they summarize it and bears, yes!cute BEARS are dressed like them and relives the highlights of each episodes!!!

I hope channel 2 won't cut those amazing scences!!

The Crown Prince of Korea. "shin"

Moody, athletic, intelligent and hides his

child-like qualities that the viewers should not miss.

"chae-kyung" Preppy, lovable, sweet, future princess and
The girl who's wearing his jogging pants with her skirt at school.
"LV" is the cousin of the crown prince.
next-in-line to the succession to the throne.
down to earth, intelligent and rival of shin.
The kontra-bida. hehehe
Pretty and a ballet dancer. Just watch her and judge her.
Don't know if you'll love her or learn to hate her! ^_^

oh my... Beer Belly!

2006-12-16T11:07:00.000+08:00

waahhhh!
my belly is getting bigger and bigger!
I cnt resist the call of alcohol!
hehehe
its fun to drink (as in)
esp when I'm with my friends!
ok pa un pag ung isa mong kasama
may malaking problem!!!
syempre true friends to the rescue na!!!!

enjoy every moment na magkakasama
but pag nakakarami na!!
oh no! AMATS dude at laking belly!!

hehe yesterday, halos whole duty ko,
natulog lang ako sa students lounge ng hospital!!
amp! sakit kasi ng ulo ko...
and ang nakakatawa dun,
nung nag evaluation exam kami,
isa ako sa nakakuha ng highest score!
kahit natulog lang ako habang
nageexam ung iba...hehehe -_-

kampay!!

what makes me smile

2006-12-09T12:49:00.000+08:00

what makes me smile???

hhmmm

chocolates
cakes
ice creams!
oreo!
stuff animals (white bear and pandas are the best!)
Pizza
Doughnuts!
perfumes
candies
spaghetti (pasta!!!!)
DOTA
O2
many to mention pa ill edit it later..

but im not materialistic person!
simple things can give me a big smile!
like...
LOVE
CARE
SupPORT
TRUST...

bringing back the kid in us

2006-12-03T10:08:00.000+08:00

I went to a party of my close friend, m2, last night... It was her 18th birthday...
It was held at the clubhouse of BlueRidge B near eastwood.

As I received her invitation a month ago, It says something like, "We'll celebrate and bring out the kid in us.." hmmm what would be the program this time... the invitation have only one page and a map guide to the place of the event... no long lists of 18 roses,candles etc... but it was indicated there that the attire should be semi-formal..hehehe

I had a hard time choosing what to wear because I dont know if I should wear long-sleeves matching with slacks or simply a comfortable jeans and a party shirt.. It's so confusing!!!If we're going to have a kiddy party, It's better to wear jeans but Im afraid to look like im soo out of place if I'm the only one wearing a casual wear..hehehe so I decided finally to go with the everlasting longsleeves...^_^

The Party was really one of a kind!
I was right! the concept of her debut was Children's Party with full of m&m chocolates!!!
and almost all of us were wearing semi-formal attire hehehe...
Beside the super delicious food at the buffet table, there were booths for face painting, Ice creams (mango, quezo, and chocolate, you pick), fishballs and kikiams, and Cotton Candies!!!!!

I had a great time watching and participating in the games...
My favorite bring-me, the boat is sinking, pinoy henio, burst that balloon, pabitin, piñata (and ang laman puro m&m's yummy!!!), and many more... Its fun to watch the girls run around and play while they wear their high heels! hehehe

new morning... new life...

2006-12-02T12:49:00.000+08:00

yesterday,

i felt like i was the happiest man alive.. -_-
for some personal reasons,
im really happy inside out...
it was around 12:02am,
i received a message that made my
heart jump,
my spirit soar high
and im in a bliss until now..

I'm s0o0o0oo happy...
I felt like i was dreaming but Im not...

It's a perfect timing to have
a new day,
a new life,
a new beginning...

now,
I believe that
LIFE
is
worthliving...

Happy Feet

2006-11-28T20:07:00.000+08:00

Happy Feet...
A very happy and exciting movie that you shouldn't miss...
I watched it three times already at the silverscreen and Im planning to watch it again...
hehehe

Gloria - - - look-a-like of my angel... hehe

Bring it on! The music of the film makes me wanna dance!!!

mumu stories

2006-11-26T11:04:00.000+08:00

our duty yesterday is less tiring than the past two days... some of the patients were discharged so we have more time chatting and singing in the students lounge...nung mga hapon, we transfered to one of the rooms.. and there we lie on the bed.. laugh.. asarin si judah!, VS uli and food trip! and we planned our upcoming early christmas party and hope na ma-finalized na kung saan...

at around 8 to 9 pm..
the sliding window is open and the freezing chill of the air are slowly touching our faces,
then Neeca started telling creepy stories about the tikbalang living in their backyard...
at first im not afraid at all but when the stories went on and on.. im feeling colder and goosebumps were all over my body... suddenly a flying cockroach interupted our mumu-moments... all of my girl duty mates screamed and Neeca was the loudest..hehehe even i didn't move at all.. im soo afraid of flying cockroaches... as in! ok lang ung hindi lumilipad eh..but when they're fyling, oh my, good luck... hehehe

Visiting the past

2006-11-21T17:27:00.000+08:00

Yesterday... I finally faced the past that I kept inside...
Im so stupid to cry for someone I already let go... I didn't cry coz I miss that person but to finally let go all the pain I feel inside... I was relieved after the telephone call, It went great.. Now were friends (i think)... hehe just happy that after we talked seriously, we clear things up and now were ok... hayyy.. life is soo complicated....

remember:

SMILE - - - It makes a world of difference.

DANCE - - - Who knows when you won't be able to?

CRY - - - Holding those emotions in is bad for you.

KISS - - - Kisses are the most wonderful things in this world.

LAUGH - - - What's the point in hiding happiness?

FROWN - - -Why not let others know you're unhappy?

APOLOGIZE - - - You don't wanna lose friends.

HUG - - - There's no better feeling being wrapped up close to someone you love.

LIVE - - - Because Life is everything...

music: Collide

Saturday Night Fever

2006-11-20T19:04:00.000+08:00

Every Saturday, napansin kong lagi nalang may magagandang nangyayari with my life!
Last week ung sa OR then just this saturday hindi ako nakapag scrub nurse but I enjoyed playing DOTA and o2 the whole afternoon!

when the moon appeared with its brightness..
Neeca(leah), Glai, Ice and me went to metrowalk for clubbin'.
We had a post celebration for her birthday and went to decades.
Party! Party! Party! Galore!

Nung una medyo boring kasi naman ampness!
puro retro ang songs and adding insult to the injury, may mga oldies that night at may nag ballroom pa... i have nothin against them, kulit nga eh.. sobra.. they stil living their lives perfectly and tryin to jive with us... un nga lang inabot ng quarter to twelve before talagang nagstart ang house,rnb and other beat na maganda! hehehe

Basta Gimick pa din!!!! go go go!!!

what's your lunch??

2006-11-17T11:09:00.000+08:00

Eeewwww! Whats this? Secret!!

Freaky??

2006-11-17T10:22:00.000+08:00

"wag kang lilingon..."
a horror flick released by starcinema..

I thought its gonna be another money-wasting-movie but it turns out to be a better shocking experince than PULSE! Actually its not dat horrifyng. some scenes will give u the reaction "i know whats goin 2 happen next!". The ghosts are funny and dumb but I enjoy laughing while watching coz lele and rose anne were the only peepz in the movie house who shouted and screamed at the top of their lungs.. Its really exciting to watch horror movies with friends who are easy to be scared! remember when the credits roll, try to read the casting.. there's a list of the ghosts.. the most amazing -- "the luwa-mata ghost" or labas mata something,,,, hahaha ^_^

The story is about Melissa (anne curtis), a young nurse who works in a hospital which have an increasing number of deaths and at the same time, the disturbed spirits of the murdered patients haunt her while she works. Together with her boyfriend James (marvin agustin), they are trying to investigate who is the killer on the loose. More spooky events happened to Melissa. Are they goin to solve the mystery?? when the screen fade out, another story follows. Its about a breadwinner Angel (K. Hermosa), her younger sister and mom who rented a big old house just only for P3000. yeah! its a great deal for them but the locked door leading to the basement unfolds another mystery.

really scary huh? hehehe just watch it if you want.. but a friendly advice, think twice.. ^_^

next attraction: HAPPY FEET!!!

November - - - A LOve Month?!!

2006-11-16T10:27:00.000+08:00

Hmmm as far as I could remember,
November is famous to be the month of holloween but...
It became an early love month...

Love is everywhere!
In my School,
In our home,
In my barkada,
and even in our duty area!!!

Love is invading the town!
And its only November!

when I go to school,
all day...we talked about love and relationships... coz i have few friends who are "virgins" on this kind of situations..

when I go home,
my sister and her friends always chat and talked about their boyfriends!

when I visit my barkada,
all of the couples in our group are soo sweet together and guess what? continue talkin' about relationships and LOVE!!!

wahhh!!!
Love is everywhere!
Its haunting me left and right..

so what do you think??? -_- is it really a love month?? nahhh!!

Bloody Operation

2006-11-13T00:28:00.000+08:00

November 11
Last Saturday
A bloody Operation Day

Our Clinical Instuctor, Ms. Casil, changed our shift from 2pm-10pm to 7am-3pm so we could handle more medical casses. Thanks to her, I witnessed and assisted again an astonishing operations... Yosh!

I started my day when I came in late for my duty(what!! not again!) hehehe and its not new for my friends...My regret, I missed the opportunity to be a scrub nurse for the first time... Its my fault! (sayang!) i just became a circulator instead... anyhow, I really enjoyed witnessing operations left and right... hehehe.. I wont tell the details of it coz you might be grossed out or something... ^_^

This is Leah, it's also a big day for her last Saturday, because It's Leah's Birthday! We surprised her with a Cake (Luckly, I picked the right cake - - -her favorite chocolate marjolaine) and it made her day more brighter.

Messages from Cheeky Cheeky

2006-11-12T23:09:00.000+08:00

I was downloading MP3 files from the net when my mobilephone beep...
It's 11:37pm now and Cheeky is still alive and kickin!
Flooding me with quotes and Jokes...
and I picked the best quote and joke for the day...

"Life can be so unfair...

cooking a meal takes 1 hour,

but eating it takes 5 minutes...

constructing a building takes 6 months,

but blowing it up takes 30 seconds....

earning P10,000.00 takes 30 days,

but paying the cashier for a cellphone takes 2 seconds...

However, it's amazing that...

A 1second smack on the cheek

can make your day...

A 5 seconds glimpse of your crush

can make your week...

& a 10 seconds HUG,

can take your 1year pain away... = )"

"Hindi lahat ng Macho... may bigote!!!"

^_^ ---Vina Morales--- ^_^

Gowning and Hand Washing!

2006-11-09T21:58:00.000+08:00

hayy... I just arrived from the Hospital and Im soo burnout! physically burnout!
I was assigned this time in the Operating Room (yahoo!!!) but all we did was memorize and familiarize ourselves to all OR instruments! phew! its really confusing especially when it comes to forceps and scissors! There are tons of it!! hehehe

Aside from filling my brains out with those mayo and surgical scizzors, I really had a great day with my friends! First, I found out that almost half of our class hates the Bakekang(the girl who is worst than the big bad wolf!). It's official! She is a big freak of nature! (im refering to my clasmate---look alike of bakekang) Then, I enjoyed chatting with my dutymates! As if its our first day again and we never talked for years... hehehe

I hope this happiness I feel right now will never end...

coz im sure later,
after typing this entry,
after taking a bath,
and look at the stars in the sky outside...
while lying on my bed...

I'll be sad again... depressed.. alone...

The song that I never knew the Lyrics...

2006-11-08T20:07:00.000+08:00

I like a song that keeps running on my mind...

but I never knew its title and who sang it...
and I love it so much since the first time I heard it from the radio...
the funny things is, I knew the song for years already and only recently I discover It's title.. hahaha Thanks for the movie "the perfect man"! I was watching it on HBO and I jumped for joy as I heard the song again! My cousin got a dvd of that movie so I asked him if he know the title of the song while singing to him some part of it... ^_^ the answer to my question is just beside our house! hahaha! Now im soo happy that I finally know its title!

Collide
by Howie Day

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah

I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide

I'm quiet you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide

Don't stop here
I lost my place
I'm close behind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to ryhme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find
You and I collide

You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide

Eager to Watch

2006-11-06T19:19:00.000+08:00

The Grudge 2!

New horror flick that Im really looking forward to watch... Since the first time I saw it's teaser,whoah!!!! I cant wait to watch it.. Call me desperate but I really love watchin' suspense and horror movies! The only problem why I cant watch it... Im all alone, nyahaha I want to see it with my friends or with someone else. Many people already warned me not to watch and dont waste my money on it but the hell I care... I want to see Toshio!!!!! hehehe I watched all sequels of the original and english versions of "the grudge" and I love it all..

A Moment To Remember

2006-11-04T11:54:00.000+08:00

November 1

for some, this day is just a typical All Saints Day but for me... this day rocks...

It was really a moment to remember...

100 Facts About Me

2006-11-04T11:32:00.001+08:00

1. Name: Justin Bañez
2. niCk Name: Juz
3. Location: Philippines
4. Place of Birth: QC
6. Male or Female: Male
7. Car: Dont have one...
9. Occupation: Student
10. Initials: JASB
11. Screen Name: none
12. Hair Color : black
13. Hair Length: short
16. Height: 5'10"
18. Glasses: none
19. shoe size: 9 or 9.5
20. eye color: black...

Your Firsts
22. First best friend: my cousins
23. First kiss: parents haha
24. First Sport: bowling
25. First thing you did today: I send a message to "A"
26: First thing you ate today: pastries
27. First thing you said today: "oh my God!"
28. First Love: hmmm...

Favorites
29. Movie: A Walk To Remember... Wind Struck... A Moment To remember... SpiderMan
30. TV Show: Charmed, Grey's Anatomy, Life As we know it, Gilmore Girls, 7th Heaven, CSI, Survivor
31. color: blue, white, black
32. Rock Band: Parokya
33. Place to get groceries: Robinson's and SM Hypermart
34. Food: Jap, Italian and Fil foods
35. Season: Summer and Spring
36. Candy: Mentos and Fox
37. Sport: volleyball, badminton, bowling
42. Animal: Fish
43. Book(s): a walk to remember, bob ong, the da vinci code
44. Magazine: Food mags, FHM,

Currently
45. Doing before you started this survey: eating a cake
46. Thinking: to visit my friend in Magallanes
47. Wearing: black boxers and white shirt
48. Crying bout: why..?
49. Eating: done
50. Drinking: water... H20 dude!
51. Typing: this survey
53. Listening To: my cousin's annoying voice
54. Thinking: how to get my bunny back
55. Wanting: iPod
56. Watching: none

Future
59. Want to be Married: dunno
60. Career in Mind: Registered Nurse, Business man and chef
63. Hair color: Black
64. Hair length: Any style
65. Eye color: hazel brown
66. Measuremnts: huh?!
67. Cute or sexy: huh?!
69. Hugs or Kisses: Kisses
70.Short or Tall: any
71. Easygoing or serious: both
72. Romantic or Spontaneous: Same
73. Good or Bad: more on the good side and little bit of bad
74. Sensitive or spontaneous: sensitive yet spontaneous
75. Hook-up or Relationship: for future - - - Relationship
77. Trouble Maker or Hesitant one: any

Have You Ever
78. Kissed a Stranger: nope
79. Had surgery: yup when i got my circum...
80. Gone commando: yup
81. Ran Away From Home: not yet
82. Broken a bone: couple of times..
83. Got an X-ray: yeah alot of times!
84. Been on a cruise: not yet

(BADLY)
86. Dumped someone: yup.. -_-
87. Cried When Someone Died: yes
88. Cried At School: yeah

Do You Believe In

89. God: YES!
90. Miracles: YES!
91. Love at First Sight: YES
92. Ghost: YES
93: Aliens: NO
94. Soul Mates: YES..
95. Heaven: YES!
96. Hell: YES!
97. Answered prayers: YES!
98. Kissing on The First Date: yup
99. Horoscopes: sometimes

Answer Truthfully

100. Is there someone you wish you had?
- - - yes!

House Party. Food. Liquor.

2006-10-21T17:00:00.000+08:00

Beth's 18th Birthday!

It's a surprise party for Beth! Our friend since elementary days...
Simple House Party that leads to a great Bonding Moment!

Its been a while since my sisters' friends got together and celebrate! and...
Last Night was a Blast!

I Indulged myself with those delicious Foods... Overflowing Liqour and raving beat of the stereos just inside our crib!

Even there were only 7 of us.. We have a great time and many secrets poured out when its Tagay time!! hehehee I discovered some things and super confidential! What's good in drinking alcohol... unstoppable emotions and telling of secwets... hehehe

Even I got soo drunk.. I told my close friend Lele a big secret!
and i think it shocked her big time...
I only realized that I done a big mistake when I was going to sleep at around 4am...
Thank God Lele is really a trustworthy friend!

Good Things Never Last...

2006-10-15T21:48:00.000+08:00

Im a kind of person you'll always see smiling...
free-spirited...
gullible...
easy to be loved(as said by others)...

then why!!! sometimes, Life is so Cruel?!

One moment...
Im in a bliss,
non-stop Laughter and Giggles...
as if there is no tomorrow...
full of hopes and dreams...

but when Im all alone...
just in a blink of an eye...

sadness comes...
worries and anguish appears...
anxiety consumes me...

I want to cry...
runaway and hide...
forget all the things and die!

im so sad...
so lonely..
dont know what to do...

im longing for someone...
who is going to be in my arms...

the one who i'll share
my strengths and flaws in life...
the reason of my existence,,,,

-_- "just be strong Juz and you'll be blessed in disguised" -_-
a comfort by a true friend...

oreo, oreo, oreo

2006-10-09T22:53:00.000+08:00

I LOVE OREO!!!

wahhh!!!

im crazy over oreo...

its very addicting...

colorful and very kewl!

the
tasty
cookies
with

very
very sweet VANILLA CREAM inside...

I just damn Love it!

Brand New Day...

2006-10-09T22:21:00.000+08:00

It's been a while since my last post... so busy in school stuffs...

seconds,
minutes,
and hours passed by
s0o quickly...

and on those time, many things have happened with my life...

I gained lots of friends and loss the stinky one... (the big bad wolf! BAKEKANG!)!
Got humiliated in front of a big crowd just for my grades' sake...
Passed and failed an examination...
got drunk and forget all my problems...
saw my old but true and lovely friends!
ate lots of oreos...
bewildered with my classmates' attitude...
enjoyed my Chocolate Chip Cream...
downloaded new song...
watched new movies on the big screen...
Ate my fav dish at my favorite reztos in the metro...
Ignored the insults of Bakekang!
Lived my life to the fullest...
Called Lele and Crizzy so many times..

Pheww!!! that's a long list!
yet it didn't stop there...
i just can't remember it all.. hehehe

Tesa.. ang Dakilang Pasaway!

2006-09-22T22:50:00.000+08:00

This week... is a big blast for me...

Monday:
We dont have classes in MS and CHD! YOSH! but sayang sa uniform coz i still got one subject left to attend, the most boring one, Philippine History! I love the subject itself but the professor is so damn awful! Anyway, I also missed watching my favorite cartoon "Pokemon".. Nyahaha yup! its just for kids but until now I'm addicted to it!

Tuesday:
Like yesterday, I got only one class, Christian Ethics and our professor are always murdering my name whenever he calls me! He pronounces it "JOZTIN BANES" huh?! After 2 hours of torture and hearing lame answers of my classmates in our semifinal exam, I asked old buddies from Trinity to have some bonding time (sayang din kasi sa uniform kung di ako aalis).

Tesa, Lele, Crizzy and me, all agreed to meet in Gateway and just relax in Starbucks... Naku, ang pasaway na Tesa, cant control herself,she got 3 JAVA CHIPS VENTI and a box of her favorite thingy and the outcome: DOB! (Difficulty of Breathing secondary to Pain in cardiac area)!

Wednesday:
A LONELY DAY! I got a low grade in our Medical Surgical Nursing Semifinal Examination! It's very depressing but It's all my fault! I didnt study for that exam and I know I deserve to fail... huhuhu...

Thursday:
Duty Day again and the like the other days, my CI in our area didn't show up... I heard she was sick so she cant make it to the area... so we consulted with our level coordinator and unlucky us, she gave us 3 Long Pages ofNursing Intervention where we need to define it or write down the procedures and its Source!!! wahh its soo hard to do!

FRIDAY!:
A dreadful Curse is still knockin on my doors, I dreamed last night that I'll have a great weekend after a long torment but I was wrong... I had a harder experience in my duty... Totally Toxicated!

Imagine this.. I handled almost 10 patients! *pheww* glad i got out of the hospital alive! and one of this patients have Tuberculosis stage 3 and I haven't wear any protective precautions! Wahhh I didn't know patient X have that kind of condition... poor me... I was shocked for a while and seek my professor opinion bout it... thank God when she said It's ok as long as im not too close woth the patient that moment and patientX did not sneeze... hayyy Now, I'm relieved that perfectly fine....

MoVe that HipS gLai!

2006-09-17T23:30:00.000+08:00

Our Duty Group, A1A, is one of the coolest groups I've ever joined in!
We have a long list of "things to do" and I'll share with you guys some of it!!!

OUR DUTY PLANS:

1. Go to Tagaytay
2. Gimmick!
3. Swim at Leah's Place
4. Have fun in EK
5. Drink Coffee & Frapps in our breaks and after duty (DONE)
6. Have a group outing in far places
7. Barhoppin'
8. Videoke Tripin' (done, last friday!)

Finally!
One of the most wonderful plans we have was carried out just last night!
We danced and enjoyed our drinks from dusk 'til dawn in Ortigas! But sadly, it's only me, Leah and Glai were around!

After long hours of bonding and having fun, I discovered One thing about Glai! She Rocks on the dance floor, she knows how to move her body together with her Hips and Jive with the music! hehehehe Leah also showed her sensual moves! Pheww! Its hard to keep up with them! but I really had a great time, bonding and spendin my night with them! Hope Next time, my other duty buddies could come with us!

ExaM WeeK

2006-09-13T15:19:00.000+08:00

Argh!

This week is our examination week and I can't believe it! we're going to take our Semi-finals Tests! Imagine this, we took our midterm exam just this past few weeks and now it's semi-finals already!!!

Time slips away so fast, I didn't realize that so many things had happened to me... I made quite a number of NCPs and Drug Studies, administered medications, enjoyed cups of Starbucks and Figaro, ate my favorite donuts every other day, ate at MCdonalds almost everyday and chat afterwards, Online Everday, Finished watching my new DVD of Korean dramas, met new friends and finished my tutoring my student in Chemistry!

Now, all my attention must be in my MS Nursing subject. I need to study and memorize all the nursing intervention, clinical manifestations and other stuffs like that so I have to pass that Discipline! hayyy.... Anyway,

Im looking forward to unwind again after all the hard work and answering the test questions this friday! Go, Go, Go Fighting!!!!

Light and Dark

2006-09-12T17:13:00.000+08:00

In the Light,
were strong to fight,
envy and anger return to dark,
where shadows dwell,
so it wont consume us, well.

but sometimes we forget that...

In the dark,
where no one can see,
we are someone we wanted to be...
our dreams becames reality.

The Duty Scandals

2006-09-11T23:22:00.000+08:00

Here's our filmLoop...

~Me and my Duty Buddies!!!~

Mean People...

2006-09-01T23:39:00.000+08:00

I found this amazing short story by accident...
and as I read the whole story....
It made me realized that it really happens in reality...

There are people who you thought to be your friends but what you didn't know...
they're slowly killing you...
stabbing your back....
telling other people stories that are far from the truth...

INSECURITIES won't do any good! It consumes your soul and unknowingly, bringing you down!
If you are insecured, man change that attitude....
dont let other people say it to you, straight on your face!

So, Just a good friendly advice... and i hope dont get me wrong here...

Change your bad attitude...
Dont Bitchin' things about your friends...
Don't climb a mountain, if you cant really climb and no guts at all...
Be good and remember what God teached you...
Believe that whatever fucking thing you do... will come back to you, in 3 folds pa!!!!

Short Story of a Teen...

2006-09-01T21:44:00.000+08:00

"The Outcast Wouldn't Forgive Me"

Written by Mariam D. Mababaya (at age 16, now 17)On Wednesday, July 23, 2003

It was in eighth grade when I moved to a new private school from a public one and it was that year (year 2000-2001) when I experienced recognition for the very first time. I hang out with the most popular girl at school and for some reason I turned out to be her best friend. We were always together as a friendly pair, pleasantly inseparable. She was the rowdy tomboy who talked about almost anything that came into her mind; she was the one who pushed me into doing things I've never done before. She had transformed a once shy and meek nerd into a conceited make-up freak. Nowadays we hardly phone each other unlike last time when we used to be classmates. I had moved once again to another school, another private school where life was, every second of the day, becoming worse. Without her I became the school's worst outsider, the girl whom every single kid was forced to shun like I was something noxious.

That best friend of mine's was Sheila, two feet taller than I and awfully boyish. Although we studied in different schools we did phone each other every other day. But it was my fault that our friendship had come to an end…or hers. We were having a quarrel on the phone about some Russian singers called Tattoo (I think that's what they're called) and after her phone call the other day I told her I was too busy to talk to her so she hung up on me. As a matter of fact, I was terribly busy studying for my finals. It would've been a waste of time if we went on talking about garbage. I remember her calling me at twelve midnight and she went on and on chatting about who-knows-what while I sat there on my bed listening to every word she uttered. To tell you the truth, we were chatting for almost five hours and the line would several times get disconnected. Ending our lengthy chat at four thirty in the morning and getting up at nine, I missed my bus the following day and had to have my uncle drive me to school since my parents were away from the country.

At first I figured we'd be rivals, Sheila and I. When we first met she'd try to screw up my hair a couple of times, playfully take away my pens so I'd run after her and once slapped my bum in front of the entire class. It was as if she wanted me to get rid of the shyness I carried with me all along. Weeks went by and I became one of the most mischievous girls in class. I'd play all sorts of chasing games from Cops and Robbers to Ice and Water in the schoolyard with a bunch of other eighth graders and literally hit some tall beefy guys by accident. I bumped into a seventh grader on one occasion who was a feet taller than me. We slammed each other's heads with ferocity and after a while found him crying beneath Mr. Peterson's arms. Being a rather extremely sensitive kind of person, I almost cried as well but in the end I was laughing like crazy with a few groups of friends. Numbers thought that I was being childish and immature but I didn't really care about what they thought of me. As long as I was with Sheila, everything would be fine…or so I thought...

The year's second semester we received a new student. Her name was Farrah and every one of the students hated her, not because she wasn't pretty, hip or anything but because of the fact she thought of herself as 'stunningly beautiful'. We knew that from the way she'd flicker her thinning eyelashes every second, from the way she walked and the way she kept flirting with some teachers. Moreover, she had all these ugly zits on her face, her coffee-colored hair looked as if they hadn't been washed for a decade. She was kind of short for her age and had a mannish body, although I lied to her once that she was perfectly 'thin'.

When I first saw her standing by the door, I was so eager to be a friend of hers until she asked me why I was dressed in full black…as in 'Do you think wearing that would make you look cool?' and since I tend to get furious so easily I immediately snubbed her and said it was none of her business. Everyone in class would imitate her every move and each one would break up afterwards, even during classes. Farrah was obviously trying to figure out what the kids were snickering about and later on learnt that she was the school's biggest laughingstock. She had no friends, no one to be with during breaks. Everyone would be out in the yard while she'd sit in class all by herself not even having her lunch. I know I hardly ate a thing at school (I was anorexic/bulimic at that time) but at least she would've gone out of class and hang out with some people like I did.

Up till now I don't understand why I was being so mean to her that year, perhaps I was only trying to get more attention or I was thinking that being ruthless to someone whom everybody hated would make Sheila sort of proud of me. I guess I was acting exactly like one of those snobby chicks you'd see on TV; maybe I was trying to copy them or maybe being heartless and rude to someone inferior was fun…I really am not sure why I was treating her so cruelly. There was a time when I brought a whole bucket of green goo to school and placed the stuff on her seat. Unfortunately she was sitting next to me but anyways I was incredibly overjoyed that she actually sat on it and when she got up all her 'behind' was filled with the green sticky substance which people would definitely describe as 'gross'. That period was just before break and the whole class and I (except for a girl called Amber who wore glasses which only nerds would dare put on) were planning to get Farrah into the schoolyard so that all girls and most especially the guys would notice her.

"Farrah, why don't you come join us in the yard? You can buy your snacks from the cafeteria," I said giving a phony smile while the girls who stood behind her were struggling not to have their giggles heard. She certainly couldn't believe why I was all of a sudden being nice to her. "You really mean it? Um…" she said as she looked around the class and wondered why on earth everybody was staring at her by then. Sheila stood beside me, smirking while I and another girl both dragged her with force out of the class. Another friend of mine's kept shoving her from the back until goody-goody Amber hurriedly blocked the door and shrieked 'Wait! You can't leave this room with that! What's that thing?' pointing at the goo. Farrah was apparently shocked when she saw it and the whole class, who had then stopped guffawing, acted like they've never seen it before. I too pretended to be not responsible for it. "Oh my god, ewww! Is that yours?" I said, slowly roaring with laughter. The whole class laughed along with me while I held Farrah's skirt high above the air. I pretended to be to getting rid of the green stuff that was smeared all over her bottom. "You know what…why don't we wash this off with water?" I said, acting as if I cared about her or something. Sheila and I accompanied Farrah to the bathroom and if you were there, you'd find three eighth grade girls on a sink trying to take off some green slime from a gray-colored skirt. I rubbed, scratched, tore with all effort and purposely made numerous holes and openings in her uniform. "Send it to the school's tailor," said Sheila. "There's a tailor at school?" she asked, not thinking I was the one who made the holes. "Yeah, you'll find him somewhere over there," I said, foolishly pointing at nothing but thin air. "Will you two come with me?" "Mariam, we have Mrs. Christy right now" said Sheila and off we went chortling while Farrah walked towards another building.

Farrah was with no doubt the school's most well-known dupe. One day when we were at the school's library my clique and I gathered around Farrah and began asking her several questions only to embarrass her. Since she didn't really know a lot of English words, we asked her questions like "Are you a dyke?" and all girls would start laughing like hyenas. "What does 'dyke' mean?" she asked looking at me with puzzled eyes. That caused me and Sheila to stare at each other for some time and went laughing so hard till our sides would hurt.

"Well, a dyke is…" I whispered while my friends hid their teary eyes filled with laughter under the table, "it's someone who likes to learn a lot, someone who feels that he or she has the need to know something, someone curious!""Yes I'm afraid I am," she said beaming at me."Ooh!" said Sheila lightheartedly. By that instant, everyone in the crowded library was cackling, some had tears falling from their eyes and most of us turned scarlet.

"Why's everybody laughing?" asked Farrah.
"That's because they've never had a dyke at school!"
I said giving her a broad grin.
"I still don't see the point why they must laugh like that…"
Sheila, Amber and I were thinking of what other question we'd ask her.
When I told them my idea they both started giggling."
So Farrah, do you have a…" I couldn't stop myself laughing so hard, thus Sheila completed the question for me, saying,
"Farrah, do you have a dick?"
"What's a dick?"
It means 'mother', do you have one or are you an orphan?"
I asked, still roaring with laughter.
"No, I'm not…yes, I do have a dick" she said and we all instantly laughed like we had watched the most hilarious flick on Earth.

Ridiculing Farrah never made me guilty of doing so; I thought teasing her was fun. I felt that the more I made someone look inferior, the more I grew confident and superior. Every time I had the chance to pass by her I'd roughly shove her against the walls with my elbow. I was the one who'd hurt her with my bare hands while Sheila was to holler all sorts of dreadful insults at her perplexed face in front of a fairly large crowd.

One time Sheila gave me a dare to slap Farrah on her cheeks real hard and I did. She gave me a slap too but harder and I right away slapped her again with more force, she tried to whack me again but missed while I had another chance to smack her pimpled face one more time. We were slapping one another other as if hitting each other's faces with our open hands was all we could do. I thought it was funny but Farrah took it very seriously. That afternoon she called me and I was screaming at her on the phone like I've never done to anyone before. "You started it!" she squeaked and I yelled, "It was your fault not mine's! You shouldn't have slapped me when I hit you! I was only kidding! And why the hell are you making it such a big deal anyways? Ugh! I'm sorry, ok!?" then I hung up and unplugged all telephone wires so she wouldn't call back. However, that night when the family was having dinner she made a phone call and this time my mom answered it.

She was actually having a talk with Farrah, the freak. "Tsk tsk tsk! Are you sure? My daughter did that? Tsk tsk tsk! Yes, uh-huh, yes…of course…yes, she should be…ah, I see…tsk tsk tsk!" was all she said. In the end I found out that Farrah was making up stories about what I did to her, making me sound even worse, much worse. "She said you slapped her for no reason! How could you do such a thing?" mom roared. After she explained to dad what happened, he grasped my arms real tight and gave me a blow on my face which turned bright red.

That was the first time he'd ever hit me in years and that night was when I first turned extremely depressed and suicidal, not only because of that but because of many family conflicts as well as various school problems. I wasn't a straight A student, unlike my brothers and I happened to be exceptionally weak in chemistry and math. Chemistry was the most complicated subject for me since I hardly understood a thing the teacher was trying to say.

After a number of days Farrah had the courage to actually talk to each student outside of class, alone, in private and literally ask them 'Can you be my best friend?' as if every guy and girl would start liking her. Whenever a student came in and out of class she'd tell us exactly what Farrah had told her and we'd all start laughing at her pure stupidity. Then it was my turn to talk to her under the staircase.

"You know that you're a very sweet girl and I like you"
"Of course," I chuckle for a while, not giving her eye contact at all.
"I have always wished to be your friend"
"I know"
"And Sheila's too"
"Hey forget Sheila, ok? She's my friend, MY friend and not anyone else's!"
"I know but I like her too"
"Whatever…"
"Can I ask you a question?"
"Shoot"
"But promise you won't laugh at me?"
"Why would I laugh at you?" still staring at the ground.
"Ok, can you be my best friend?"
"Best friend?"
"Yes, I'll give you anything you want…I promise"
"Look, I'll think about it okay?"
"Ok"

When I entered the class everyone was gathered at my desk, waiting for me. After I sat they all started asking me what happened. "So are you going to be her best friend?" Sheila asked, her eyes filled with both curiosity and envy. "Of course not, eww! She – my best friend? No way!" and then she gave me a smile of relief. The following days were pretty hard for the three of us, Sheila, Farrah and me. When I told Sheila about Farrah's recent phone call and the fact that she was demanding that my own mother order me not to hang out with my new best friend Sheila, she got pretty mad. Every morning and afternoon she'd be screaming her heads off at Farrah while I and a huge gang of girls stood behind Sheila, defending her. "Who are you to phone her mother and say that we're not supposed to be friends anymore? You have no right to break my relationship with my best friend so f*ck off!" "You told her to slap me so you started the whole thing!" "So?! You have a problem with that, you bitch!?" the fights went on endlessly each day and they never seemed to stop.

Several weeks passed by and for some strange reason I found myself hanging out with Farrah in lunch breaks, I don't quite remember why. I'd have a walk with her in the school yard while Sheila from afar would stare at us with extreme revulsion. In art class she'd give me that look that gave me an idea that I was in major trouble. In dismissal while I was on my way to the bus station, she came up to me and started screaming at me in front of a large number of guys roaming around the field. "I can't believe you're so stupid enough to be friends with that motherf*cking p*ssy! Blah blah blah --> Oh go f*ck with her!!!" I had never felt so much insulted in my entire life. I simply glared at her like she was the loser and not me, so I resumed walking.

While on my way home in the bus, I couldn't stop myself from shedding tears. I caught the driver's eyes looking at me with pity through his rearview mirror as well as other upper high school guys and girls who sat behind me. They all knew me and were wondering what made me cry like that. When I went home I spent hours trying to write a letter for Sheila to read so that she'd accept my apology. But as I read my letter from top to bottom so many times I thought I was being too mawkish, thus I ripped it off and decided that I talk to her the following day myself.

We were attending some rehearsals for our Annual Day, a party held every year where parents, friends and family members are expected to attend and watch their kids perform on stage; that day was when my parents refused to show up. So the only one I had to keep me company was a friend two years older than I. Sheila was in her cherry-red and black Spanish custom, all set for salsa while I wore my well-designed uniform, I was in a choir to sing both a cheesy welcome song and a farewell song. As for Farrah, well, she had no role at the party and decided not to come. Standing behind the stage, Sheila stood next to me not saying a word though she looked like she wanted to tell me something. "Sheila?" I thought maybe calling out her name would be good enough to start a short conversation.

"Yeah?"
"Look, I'm sorry for what I did…you're not mad, are you?"
She gives me a quick glance and shrugs as if to say, 'I'm not sure'.
"You're not jealous, right?"
"No, no, why would I be jealous?"
"Jealous of Farrah…me being with her in recess"
"I'm not that kind of person, you know"
"You know perfectly well that I don't really like her"
"Then why do you hang out with her?"
"Just to keep her company…"
"You say you don't like her and you want to keep her company…"
"She feels very lonely, Sheila"
"Well, I don't care"
"Don't worry, you won't see me with her anymore"
"Are you sure?"
"I guess. Anyway, I just wanted to make sure that you're not mad at me"
"I'm not mad you, you already know that!"
"So we're still friends?"
"Best friends!" she smiles as we start to shake each other's hands.
"So what's she like?" she asks, looking at me straight into my eyes.
"She smells like she'd never put on deodorant for years!" and we immediately burst out laughing like friends again.

Since I made a promise not to talk to Farrah anymore, Farrah was found following me wherever I went while I'd try my best to get her out of my sight. One day she was selling some hardcover notebooks to the class and I thought one of them could be used as a diary. Thinking I'm still her friend, she trusted me that I pay her some other time like I told her but I never did. I never even wanted to pay her in the first place. Until now I have that book with me and she hasn't received her money yet.

Seeing that she was the only girl in class bearing horrid pimples on every spot of her face, she felt rather self-conscious. So she asked if I could help out and I decided to sell her one of my anti-acne creams at a much higher price than the original one. When she saw the cream she said that she'd seen it in several stores at a lower price and asked me if I was trying to defraud her. "That's because you're buying it from ME. Either you buy it now or never," I said. Eventually she bought it and patiently accepted what I had charged her.

After months of torturing a girl who'd never deserved such torment, I was transferred to another private school; a lot more expensive and its chicks there were a lot more stuck-up than I used to be. Teachers hardly gave me any eye contact during classes like I was invisible and my so-called friends whom I was forced to hang out with would not say 'hi' to me whenever I'd come across them. During lessons whenever I knew the right answer to a question and lifted my hand in the air the teacher wouldn't choose me even if I was the only one raising my hand, unless I didn't know the solution to a problem the first one to choose from amongst the students was me. Each time I tried to hang out with some girls and join their conversations they'd demand that I 'butt out' and instead have my own life. Frankly telling I had not one true friend at that school, well, I almost did but I lost her when I punched her for joking around with me. Being very touchy, I always got into so many scuffles, both with the upper grades and the lower grades. The vice principal particularly learnt that I was someone who can't be trusted as I'd at least every week be sent to the principal's office because of getting into a fight or threatening someone I'd beat them up.

I recall meeting this second grader in a water fountain and having a little chat with her until she threatened that she'd splash some water on me as a joke. "No, don't!" I warned her but she stubbornly threw a whole bottle of cold water at my school uniform and I right away grabbed her with both hands, slammed her petite body into a wall then fiercely punched her in the face, calling her 'bitch'. She instantly burst into tears and ran away from me. When I came back to class, everyone had thought I'd been wetting myself too much.

There was another time when a first grader, who happened to be in the same bus as I, smacked my back playfully while I straight away slapped her face, telling her I'd never talk to her again. She didn't cry, instead she was evidently traumatized. That day I remember being hit directly on the face by a rigid ball while playing soccer with my schoolmates. It was stupid of me to just run away from the field and run all the way to class, wiping off a handful of tears. I have no idea why I'm so overly sensitive!

Life as a freshman at that messed up school was topsy-turvy. The only friends I did have was a gang of fifth grade girls who'd follow me wherever I went. Yes, I was considered as one of the smartest students in high school (I ranked second in the whole tenth grade) and everybody had my name stored in their heads but I seriously didn't like being completely alone. Whenever I'd come home all I could do was expect Sheila's phone call and when she did call, we'd talk for minutes instead of hours.

Several months ago I thought that the reason why I was so much hated at school, at home and wherever my ass leads me is because of my ill-treatment of Farrah, the pariah. Therefore I decided I'd give her a call to ask her to pardon me and to find out if we could meet each other in person so I'd give her the money I owed her. I wanted to tell her how much I regretted for whatever I did to her. Her phone rang more than a few times and I almost lost hope but then fortunately somebody at her house answered my call, it was her father. "Hello, can I please speak to Farrah?" after several minutes of waiting I recognized Farrah's high-pitched voice.

"Hello?"
"Farrah? Hi, how are you?"
"I'm fine, thank you… may I know who's speaking?"
"It's me, Mariam"
"Mariam?"
"Mariam…your classmate in eighth grade, don't you remember?"
"Mariam who?"
"Huh?"
"Kindly tell me your full name…please"

When I told her my first, middle, and last name she paused for what seemed like an hour and said, "I'm sorry but I don't know anyone by that name!" and quickly hung up on me. I got hurt, offended, wounded as if someone had just stabbed a knife at my back, my soul. Felt like I could no longer breath, petrified, showered with guilt and shame. I phoned her again but the line was busy. I called her two days later hastily saying, "Farrah, look I want to say I'm sss…" but yet again she slammed the phone while I failed to finish my sentence. I sighed in despair, putting my phone down saying "I wanted to say I'm sorry…for everything".

The other night, I asked Sheila to phone Farrah for me, to tell her how sorry I was. Because I trusted my best friend, I believed her when she said she phoned Farrah but the girl hung up on her. "You know, I don't feel sorry for the way we treated her. I really don't. That crazy bitch deserved all those torments…I mean, who on earth would dare show her any respect? She doesn't deserve any!" Sheila said.

As I mentioned before, Sheila and I aren't in touch anymore all because of some misunderstandings. The last time we had a proper chitchat she had informed me that she'd be studying engineering in a foreign country. In my case, I'm currently getting ready for college through a variety of online courses and I'm writing some poems in my free time with an aim to publish my first collection of poetry. I plan to be a writer and a poet, Sheila wishes to be an engineer (I don't know why) and Farrah would like to be a doctor as she had told me before. I've written a rueful poem about her and it is two pages long. I hope she'll get the chance to read it when it's published so she'd know how I truly feel about her.

The message behind my true story is that you should be aware of the way you treat a friend or foe. If you go on hurting others' feelings (like bullying a nerd, a geek or whatever), sooner or later you'll find yourself in that person's position. In other words, there will come a time when those who surround you will treat you exactly the way you mistreated your 'victim'…maybe even worse.

Tulala sa Kompyuter at Walang Magawa....

2006-08-30T19:10:00.000+08:00

Kakauwi ko lang mula sa aking "napakagandang paaralan"!

Kakapagod dahil parang sasabog na ang aking utak sa mga impormasyong aking natutunan sa araw na ito na nagmula sa aking mga propesor... Mahirap pag aralan ang mga sakit na maaring makuha ng bawat indibidwal sa ating bansa! Isang sakit pa lang, ang dami na ng kakabisaduhin!
at wag kakalimutan ang mga gamot na ibibigay at dapat gawin!

Sa hirap ng aking pinagdaanan sa araw na ito... hhmmm.. at sabayan pa ito ng mga tampuhan at kaguluhan sa gitna ng iyong mga kaibigan... mahirap din ang sitwasyon na maiipit at wala kang magawa... gusto ko nang tumakbo at sumigaw ng Wahhhh!!! ang gulo!!! Gutom na din ako!!!

Wala na akong magagawa, kung hindi pagdaanan ang ganitong buhay at araw araw na magdusa... marahil ito talaga ang itinakda sa akin ng ating Panginoon.

Ang nakakatuwa lang dito, lahat ng ito ay nagyari lamang sa isang araw ng aking buhay.... -_-

die chocolate... die!

2006-08-30T18:41:00.000+08:00

I hate this chocolate!

It taste bad and hope it will be gone in my life!

Who needs it?? duh!

Almost everyone dislikes it!

It have a strong taste, bad packaging, and a stinky smell!

I strongly believe in KARMA!!

"what ever Bad things you do to others will come back to you, times 3 folds!"

A Day With Yuan Xiangqin

2006-08-29T21:47:00.000+08:00

I cant believe it...
I spend my whole afternoon watching my DVD of "It Started with A Kiss"
I can't go anywhere coz it's addicting and I can't even pause it for a while because our damn remote control is broken! So I dont have any choice but to lie on my back, relax and read the subtitle until my eyes got teary and tired! I stopped watching in the middle of chapter 10, and I'm eager to watch it as soon I get back to our house...

Soundtrack --- "it started with a kiss"

As the river Flows....

2006-08-28T22:52:00.000+08:00

There's a tiny stream that's flowing to a river gently growing.

There's a seed that you've been sowing, that's ready now to grow.

There's a tiny streaam that is leading to the thing that you've been needing,

Were it's clear you'll be suceeding even more than u can know.

Today -- take a chance to jump in and make ur dreams happen.

tired but happy!

2006-08-24T20:22:00.000+08:00

I had a great day at my duty today!

my nurses notes...

~~ my CI is very kind to us and showed us his good strategies in teaching...
~~ unstoppable laughing and insults were thrown to my classmate and he was called "the grim ripper" / "ang kamatayan"
~~ met my patient who is already cured and made my head ache in making my NCP for her...
~~ ate my FAVORITE chocolate stripped Cookies from Halli and Sandwich from Jacquie...
~~ Bedmaking done...
~~ went to mega to eat lunch at goldilocks
~~ drink coffee and continue talkin about "the g.."
~~ Vaccination of HepaB for Cheska.. done
~~ print pictures... done
~~ take a bus ride home...
~~ eat again and sleep finally...

A Night out with SuperFriends!

2006-08-22T21:53:00.000+08:00

It's been a while since the last time me and my close friends from Trinity have time to hangout! And last Saturday, one of my prayers were answered when our schedules finally gave us the oppurtunity to catch up again!

Leslie invited me to join them in their gimick with her Metropolitan classmates! It's me, Lele, Crizzy and new found friend, Albert, who went together to Malate that night to meet their other classmates! Our trip became an adventure for us when our stupid taxi driver drove us to the Hotel District of Malate instead of bars and clubs!

Honestly I'm not used to the streets of Malate and same with my friends so we have a hard time looking for the right street! hehehe I was surprised when our feet brought us to baywalk!
That's something... something stupid! and that night, droplets of rain are starting to pour in! hahaha Luckly, we found Nakpil Street before it rained heavily! Thank God that we have a great time drinking and dancing!

I went home with a big smile on my face and hoping that there would be another day like this!

One Step at a Time

2006-08-21T22:14:00.000+08:00

August 18. 8am.
Bread of Life, Timog.
Capping&Pinning Ceremony.
Once in a lifetime event!

It is one of the highlights in my life!
my pinning ceremony! Now i could say that im a Student Nurse... hehehe
That day went well.. Everything ran smoothly except i forgot to bring my pin with me, so asked my father to go back to our house to get it for me... Phew! it took him almost 30 mins and im s0ooo relieved when he was back! Thank God he's back before we started the event!

At last! My long wait is over and now I can handle patients!