Showing posts with label life. Show all posts
Showing posts with label life. Show all posts

hate to be alone

Posted on Monday, July 06, 2009 - 14 comments -

Alone.
I hate to be alone.
Who wants to be alone?
Last week, I think that was last Sunday, I was urged to go out of our house because I've told everyone that I have a Seminar to attend in SM the Block, even im not really going to. They already gave me the money for the said event (and ofcourse kick-back na!!) hahaha so i don't have any choice but to go out. It was 9am when my mom shouted, "justin!! mag 10 na..dba may seminar ka! wake up!!!". I got up and prepared. I'm still drowsy and tired but i need to go out.
I was ready to go when my mom scolded me, "late ka na naman! ano ba yan!".
I gave her my excuse, "Ma! 10:30 pa ung seminar! and my friends are already in SM. They are goin to reserve a seat for me!" yeah i lied.
Now I feel your eyebrows are raising. haha Honestly, There was a real seminar in SM that day, and had my reservation. BUT i used the money for other stuff and food. anyhow...
10:15 am. I dont know where to go and what to do. What is the nearest mall that i won't be spotted. I kept on thinkin' and finally decided to go to Robinson's Place Metro East. It is in Cainta. They won't go there! that's for sure. haha so I travel to Rob East.
I arrived at RP. There I am, All alone. I texted every friend that is near my location. Hoping that I would be saved from boredom and all. But Nada, Zilch, Zero, none of my friends reply from my instant invitation for chillin' out.
I walked and walked sadly inside the mall. Feeling blue as the cold wind from the ACs of the mall touched my skin. I don't want to go to malls alone. I don't go out alone, even for a hair-cut in a salon, drinking in coffee shops nor shopping for my clothes. I tend to be sad and bored when alone in a mall. I hate it. I hoped that someone will text me, "juz where u at? im coming!" oh well, wala.
I was sleepy and haggard na,
then I heard my stomach was grumbling.
I forgot, i haven't eat anything...
so i ate in McDonalds.
hate this part again, alone. Hahahaha

As I ate my breakfast. I observed the mall, the people and also the ones who were ordering in the counter. It was Sunday, Family day, and im alone. Then what I saw made me laugh. Mga Indays and Dongs that are dating. Sunday nga pala, D-off nila.. Poor me. Sila may partner, ako wala, kasi busy ung dapat partner ko sa isang event that day. haha

I observed more of my surrounding while digging on my salty fries.
Sitting in front of me were three old maids with irritating voices. Laughing out loud and gossiping. Then there was a family, sitting in front of the old maids. They have this cute cuddly young boy, who was pinched by one of the old maids. they're not related. weird oldies.

and the dating indays and dongs.. hahaha

I was giggling by myself.. and one of the few "couples" around me gave that aweful glance.
They might be thinking that im a lunatic. I could careless. haha

I finished my large fries without noticing it. Now it is 11:30. still bored. Hopeless.

I dont know what to do now.
I saw this internet hub.
Went in and rented a computer for an hour.

got online.
and finally.
i felt...
im not ALONE. ^_^

It's Goood To Be Back!

Posted on Sunday, July 06, 2008 - 15 comments -

The heat of the summer made me slumber

OMG! It’s been a long time since my last post here.
Imagine 6 months… **phew**
and

My friends keep on asking,
“Why aren’t you writing anything on your blog? Oh my… You became a freakin’ sloth?”

Whenever I receive questions like this, I just give them a lil devil’s grin and tell them, “It’s summer, the heat waves always made me sleepy and tired.” Hahaha


What a dumb excuse right? Well to tell you honestly, I’ve been off for a deep slumber in the blogger’s world because
I experienced one of a great summer vacation evah!
LIKE….


Discover New Niche’


Learn New Things.

Ultimate Reunion.


Enjoyed the summer breeze!

Surf and Wakeboard.

Jump High.
Sleepless Nightouts and Parteys!

Tumble in the beach.


Indulge over scrumptious foods and desserts!
Yummy.

Live the army way…


Saw fantastic Sigths


Acidentally Swallow Chlorinated water.

Witness my friends glory moments!

and full of...
...ROAD TRIPS
from trafficjam South to Bumpy North!!

Summer didn’t end till the second week of June…
Hangover of the summer-heat exploded.


But to top my experiences and closed the festivities…

My heart was torn again into pieces.
Bulls eye!
A hell of a Break-up I’d say.
Been there. Done that.
But why it still has an impact on me.
Badly hurt inside out.
Now. Recovering from being a shattered soul.

hurt. run over. weak.. thats my heart

Posted on Sunday, December 02, 2007 - 6 comments -

Those who are"Bitter" are the stronger individuals...


Wanna know why?


Because STRONG people know how to control their emotions.


and Bitter People know when to realize that it's ENOUGH and it's OVER.


BITTERNESS is not totally a negative thing.


It's just a way of showing to others that in life..
there is such thing as --


"I still Love you but I do not want you anymore...."




Why in a relationship..

we love someone so much..

overflowing...

overwhelming...

u cant sleep bec u cnt stop thinking bowt that person.



And when its over...
all left is chest pain..
tears of regret...
and
shattered heart and soul...




I know I moved on already with my past but....
what happened to me a while ago made me sad and lonely...
you will never know the importance of someone till its gone..



im happy that you've got someone
who is smart, uber kind, nice and friendly...
after the tears run down on my face again..
i felt better and totaly 100% moved on!


days before this..
i dont know when will i...
stop crying..
stop thinking insanely..
stop worrying what will happen next...


Now, Its the right time to stop all of it Justin...
time to pick yourself up, and face the new challenges of life!


Pics from blogs.amritapuri.org/122/rainbow-after-the-rain/

Cinderella's Curfew

Posted on Friday, November 30, 2007 - 5 comments -

Thursday night.

A shocking news disturbed me when i got home from my hospital duty!
oh my, President GMA imposed a midnight-till-dawn curfew (12 am to 5am) all over metro manila and some parts of Luzon!

Grrr. I was about to meet my friends at around 8pm and were goin to Laffline last night! whoah what a bummer!

only few are exempted to the curfew like medical people, call center agents, those people who are goin to airports and PUV drivers...

Interior Secretary Ronaldo Puno told the press that this curfew thingy is "necessary inconvenience" to protect the peace and harmony of our country..

do we really need this?


On the brighter side, yeah it can somehow help us to control the peepz coming from the mountains to join the mutiny...
but how about the small scale vendors who are greatly affected by the official curfew?

As i heard from the recent news,

450 got arrested in the wee hours,

and almost all of them don't know


that the palace imposed a curfew.


"kawawa naman sila"

moving forward

Posted on Saturday, September 15, 2007 - 6 comments -

After seconds of romantic walks..
After minutes of sweet talks..
After hours of buying stuffs in the mall together..
After days of eating chocolates, watching movies and dining out...
After weeks of whining, fighting and awful rants...
After Months of sleepless nights..

its over..
im broken..
but still...

looking forward for a better tom...

bein positive,
eat lots of chocolates,
watch tv series (mga pirata dvds form hidalgo),
back to reality,
drink...

my steps in recuperating...

ill back on my feet soon..
i hope so..

justin you are free now.

what a night!

Posted on Thursday, August 30, 2007 - 7 comments -

after a long day of house cleaning, As usual, my sister, yuki, katrina and I, went to Gateway to eat dinner. well, thats a routine every thursday, we will go out for dinner or a movie or something.. hehe at first, I thought its just another typical thursday gateway night but at my surprise, many things had happened! as in, its all unexpected.

it all started after eating a luscious heavy dinner. while we are walking and looking a dress for my sister,

First we saw my sister's friend from TIP, i think he needs help with his mobilephone so we helped him.

After that, we all walk to starbucks araneta. when we got there, they decided that its better if were goin to starbucks gateway! oh my girls really change their minds so quickly. haha sometimes their weird.

anyway, before we headback to the mall, we saw another friend, John Paul, our friend/schoolmate from Elementary and happens to be an "x" suitor of my sister. haha so funny, my sister tried to avoid to be seen by my JP coz she's wearing her PE uniform from UST. hahaha but unfortunately, too late for her. were been spoted so we just greeted him.

then we went inside the mall,
we are on our way to starbucks, actually were near to starbucks when I saw someone.

OH my GOD!! as in, im shocked.
Its my "X"!! the most recent x! and X is with the new BF! wahahaaha

Im so shocked that I dont know what to do and react. I dont know where to go. Should I hide or something. My heart was pounding so hard. hahaha
I never experienced this before.

il tell you a short recap why im like a frantic freak. haha my X and I broke up bec "x" told me that im giving too much love.something like that... weird ryt. so vague.. so after the bearkup I never see "x' again until just a while ago. haha Its really recent, we brokeup i think last Jan. good thing is I moved on and found a better and much lovable person!

back to the story, I totaly dont know what to do.
I just look far away and asked my friends and sister..
"dali.. alis na tayo dito.. wag na tayo dito.."
haha they asked me why. i ddnt respond.

and they noticed my "X" coz my sister knew X eh.
X also avoid seein me and face his new bf.
their just actually standing in front of this boutique that time.

waahhh! im not so ready to see X but well twist of fate. my bad. X saw me in my ugliest appearance..hahaha Dont know why im conscious but its really an X factor! hahaha ^_^

to be continued... tomorrow..

another brand new day

Posted on Wednesday, August 22, 2007 - 3 comments -

last night. ive been a wrecked. totaly gone into the darkness. cant stop the emo moments. dont know why. damn this life. hate it. i thought of so many things. my past, my life so far and whats for the future. confused and lost.

dont know what to do. dont know whats right and wrong.
hahaha maybe im just crazy.

after the all the stupid emo moments, ive found out that the answer to all my problems is...

already in front of me. Its simple.
just... Love it.
go with the flow...

I must let go of all of the anger, hate, and grudge insinde me.
forgive all my enemies.
love 'em, and leave it all behind...

I asked dvdx.. why me...? why you choose me?
dvdx replied..

"im confident that you love me, the assurance that you wont look for someone else.. your serious about us and... you are you.."

sweet and well said... but my conscious mind are killing me... im not that "good guy" image.. totaly. i find myself aS stubborn, hotheaded, gullible, crazy boyfriend... ^_^ im not that big..

im not promoting myself or something but almost all of the people I asked that question tell me the same answer. good to hear that. but still im not perfect. lacking something inside out. not confident to all my abilities to love... wahhH!
im really a crazy guy.. maybe thats the reason many people love me.. insanely wonderful!

flippin' the pages

Posted on Monday, August 06, 2007 - 0 comments -

Im so bored and dont have anything to do.,.
im done with my thesis..
and im too lazy to play gameboy.. *sigh*

soo I decided to look at my past testimonials...
its like looking back at all my constructive criticism
from my friends and family.

and here are some of 'em
that
struck me. so funny..


from Rochena...my very first testimonial... Posted 11/12/2003 04:33

"haha, si justin, pag kasama mo 'to, laftrip =)
he's a comic act... hehe =)
we have a LOT of things in common: Charmed, Buffy,
Harry Potter, Barq's (lol =)) and i can go on and on =) haha,
noong summer bago mag4th yr. lng kami naging close =)
through... about... 4 hours phone conversation and text messages... natatandaan mo pa? lol =)
anyway, after that, nagkukwentuhan na lang kami about anything,
and i mean anything =)
oi, oo nga pala, don't feel guilty about sa di mo pag ice-skate, ok lang yon no! =)ummm...
oi, he's a true friend: he can sense if you're happy,
pissed off or whatever... and he's there to help you out too...
oi, justin, thanks talaga for everything: the conversations/debates about buffy last year, the charmed sisters thingy,
for not telling others about whatever i ask not to tell
(but they know now anyway >=()
and other stuff =) hehe, andami eh! thanks for everything!!!!!!! =) =) =) =)"





Crizzy said.. Posted 02/05/2005 20:16

"c justin???? masasabi k lng dito
sobrang KULIT..... nging klasm8 k sya
nung 2nd sem at pati ngaun....first
impression k d2 makulit at un 22o nga....
hnd sya mahirap pakisamahn kya cguro
marami syang frends....
cge e2 lng muna testi k ala akng
maisip ngaun e......testik rn ha!!!!!!"








LELE said..Posted 29/08/2006 08:06
"Justin!!!

my super buddy! Lagi kaming nag-uusap sa phone sa ym, nagtataka nga ung iba bakit di daw kami nagsasawang mag-usap. Oh well, ganun talaga. Parehas kaming madaming kwento!

Mas kilala na namin yung isa't-isa ngayon. Marami na akong alam sa kanya. Ganun din siya saken (?). Kung akala niyo good boy 'to. Haha. Nakakatawa naman. madaming kalokohan din 'to.

Si justin sooper FLIRTY!!!
Super TAKAW!
GALANTE din pag may pera!
SWEET, UNDERSTANDING, THOUGHTFUL at
LAITERO! hahaha! naku, nasa nature na ata namin yan.
GAHAMAN din yan sa pagkain! haha!
pero, sobrang cool frend yan. MAhilig sa GIMIK! sooobra! haha! kahit duty na, basta Gala, okay! haha! bilib nga ako jan eh.

saka. super friendly yan. sobrang gullible at sobrang SLOW. ewanco ba jan. dati, di naman yan ganyan. Yan cguro ang nagagawa ng pagiging. *uhum*. nevermind!

Ingat lagi Juz! Stay happy!
Love yah! mwah!"






Rose Anne Posted 02/05/2005 19:46


"si justin ay ang aking mabait na
kaklase... nung 2nd sem e hndi naman
kmi masyaong nag uusap nyan,.. ewan
ko b?? natatakot ata ako dyan dati e...
hehe.. pero ngaun ok na.. sya nga eh..
bait pla to khit papano!!.. kc nung dati
arti arti nyan eh.. parang girl!! pero d na
msyado ngaun.. ano p b?? ewn!! e2 na
muna ah!! gagawan n lng kta uli sa
susunod para masaya,,,isip muna ako :)
pakabait k!!!"












WHO ARE YOU?

Posted on Thursday, July 19, 2007 - 0 comments -

the tagline of the newest updated Gameboy Advance SP..

"who are you?"



After a long wait... I finally got a gameboy SP! Ive been longing for this gadget for over months and someone gave me a SP! Im soo glad and excited to feel my very own GB SP!
hahaha I have a new mobilephone. A great relationship and now a Nintendo GB SP!
what could I ask for?? haha one step at a time, my dreams are coming true!

The upgraded Gamboy Advance SP comes with a brighter backlit screen. It enhanced the gameboy experience when playing. This brighter edition is better coz it gaves me a clearer view of the game. It brings out the sharpness and graphic richness of the gameboy advance games. The poor performance of it just the same like the other gameboy advance, its sounds.. you need a headset to have a good quality of the background music of your game..

playing gameboy is really addicting..



you know.. once you got hold of it, you cant stop playin it..



I love playing POKEMON! haha lame? nah! even im 20teen, I still love pokemon..



so hook with this pocketmonsters! I even want to buy stuffs that have pokemon characters on it! haha! well cant change my child like attitude.. ^_^






Finally gave in..

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For the past week I was taking calls... People keeps on calling just to ask why their bills are so high! exhausting but I enjoy every moment they're venting out their problems..blah blah blah.. hehehe

Few days to go.. im going to join the tenured agents on the floor and the most unexpected thing happened!

my body fianlly gave in.. I catch colds last Saturday.. I didn't realize it will be worst.. amp.. Sunday, I got high fever and it lasted for two days more... Im awol for twothree days now and our family doctor advised me to stay home and rest for a week.. im over fatigue and burnedout!

huhuhu.. i ont have any choice but to resign.. so sad...
the people around were saying that my Health is more important than money.. hell yeah! but im goin to miss my work station, my colleagues.. and my mentors.. hayy i got attached to them and now its hard to leave them like this...

many things have changed

Posted on Tuesday, May 01, 2007 - 0 comments -

its almost two months from the last entry ive posted here. and with that two months, ive encountered so many exciting adventures and thrilling escapades!

First, Ive finally met someone who is my counter-part, the one that made my world upside down. Then I learned new things, Cried a lot when I found out that Im not going to take my summer class, Miss my friends and so on...

Life..

is full of ups and down. but
ive also discover that one must always be positive.
drive the negativity away from you.
it will ruin your life.!

its funny though that i still tackle issues about life.
haha

change topic...
wahhh! Spiderman 3! a great movie. too bad we tried to watch it in the Imax theater but the tickets were sold out! grrr. now i know what ill do for the upcoming Harry Potter . SECURE tickets a month before the opening! -_-